methadone

[sunshinedaydream3]

not looking to be lectured, told how stupid of a decision im making, etc.  id like to hear from those whove been on it.  i have no problem with thinking about being on it for the rest of my life.

currently on sub.  i feel empty and hollow.  

it has helped me alot.  full time job and school.  

i been through alot, me and my girlfriend of 5 years were supposed to have a baby - she was still born (my GF never used drugs and hated that i did).  i had planned on asking her to marry me after we had the baby.

but after that all happened, we were fighting and depressed and ended up splitting up, we had dated for over 5 years, since i was a in high school

after all of that, started using got out of control - ended up on sub.

now, i just feel empty and hollow, no emotions. have totally isolated, im depressed.

i know im not ready to be off of medication assistance and from my battle i dont think i ever will be

i've been depressed n constantly thinking about gtn high.  i just want to feel good.

i am going to switch over to the methadone clinic.

anyone in here at the clinic

[casey73]

Wow.....glad 2 hear that you have gotten on methadone! Its funny how negative some people in the USA seem 2 be about it! Since you mentioned the pro methadone sites to me I have started to realize just how anti methadone so many people are.....truely fanatical! ........I was not really given many other choices. It was either keep doing pills (which would be very hard as i lacked the $ and at the time was also supplying friends.), quit cold turkey (which a was and still am terrified of), or go on methadone. As previously mentioned I am fortunate to live a 15 min drive from a drs office where 2 of the drs prescribe methadone. This may be why it is so comparatively easy for me. Having realized how lucky i am to be able to get a prescription so easily, and to be able to get methadone for free (when many in the USA must pay), I have re thought my initial post on this forum (see: methadone forever?), and realize that i should really be counting my blessings. on the few occasions since when i have done pills it has been in most cases a total dissapointment/waste of $, so i am finally able to move on from the pills. I just hope that I can remember that resolve in a few mo when my friend is released from jail and will be calling me to help him out! As you have no doubt realized by now the rumors that methadone will get you high are just that : rumors. At a theraputic dose methadone is simply "finding normal"..... Just wish I could hear the audio track on that awesome video! All the best to you and hope that your experience with methadone continues to be a good one!

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You have a good attitude going, dude........keep with it!

[sunshinedaydream3]

ive been on methadone now for 5 days.  

it's early - but i feel good.  i have stayed on a low dose, it usually starts wearing off after about 15 hours.

but, i still feel a million times better than when I was on Sub.

I feel happy, I have energy (until it wears off), and I have been interested for the first time in actually recovering.  

Ive been to three classes so far at my Clinic and I am learning alot and receiving great support.  The Methadone Clinic is WAY more recovery oriented than was my suboxone doctor.  I'd see my Suboxone doctor less than five minutes.  He was a POS

[avisg]

I think for some people sub can bring on depression then others say it relives it so everybody reacts differently.I would think about this long and hard and discuss with your sub doctor what antidepressant (if safe ) can be taken on sub .They are both very powerful drugs. I am not quite sure if switching over to methadone is going in the direction of going off of drugs or just going deeper into long term addiction.Research all avenues before you make a decision .We are here to help.

[GA Guy]

I'm just wondering if you've sufficiently explored all the options as far as Sub usage? As for your methadone plan, I'm not here to judge...that decision is for you and a competent physician. However, I never saw you mention your Suboxone dosage? Maybe I've missed it in this long post. Some of the symptoms you describe are due to high dosages for lengths of time. Are you on any sort of antidepressant? Being on an antidepressant can cause these symptoms....and, they can be alleviated WITH an antidepressant if you're not taking one (weird huh?). Can you give us your Sub usage history?

[sunshinedaydream3]

casey
i wish we could just pick it up from the pharmacy and not have to fool with the clinic.  thanks for the comment i got your msg

lashamummy
thanks alot for your response.  i feel bad people telling them i am making them cry, ha i am sorry not my intent.  but i really do appreciate it.  sorry im just now getting back i dont have internet at the apartment.

kiylen
thanks, i just got it