Hi Teri,
I don't have any personal experience with methadone, but I wanted to send my support and tell you that you CAN do this. It is going to be rough, and there is no point in sugar coating it. However, the fear is always worst than the process itself...If you surrender to it, it is so much easier. Our minds are so powerful. The only way out of this is through it, and you want your life back! You deserve it. You've just gotta be okay with not feeling okay for awhile and treat yourself with lots of gentle love. We are all here to support you. Deep breaths...Think about FREEDOM.
Much love
Lu