multiple opiad detox

[sunflowercat]

I am taking morphine sulfate 15mg 2x daily and hydrocodone 5/325 4x daily. I have been on pain medications including Demerol and oxycodone since 2002 for chronic pancreatitis and gastro pain. I just want to quit taking the pain medication. I actually think that the pain meds are keeping me sick. I want to try quitting on my own without telling my doctor. Any advice?

[Pat1956100]

No you're not silly to fear your scripts being taken away.  I feared that too.  I'm just concerned that you will be in too much pain in you are having pancreatic issues.  Can you ask your doctor to try a med other than narcotics and if it doesn't work you will go back on the narcotics?  Tell him you just want a break from them.  Are you abusing the narcotics?
So many factors to consider but if you are abusing them, then my advice may be different.

[sunflowercat]

I am afraid to tell my doctor because I am afraid of having my scripts taken away from me completely. I may be silly to be afraid of such a thing, and yet that is my reason for not wanting to discuss it with my doctor. The only significant break I have had with prescription pain meds was when I had an insurance change. That came with terrible suicidal thoughts and irrational fantasies about stabbing my pancreas. I had a different (much more positive) personality before I had pancreatic issues and nearly died in 2002. I'd just like to see if I could now live without the meds. I truly believe they are making me hurt even more than I actually am at this time. Thank you!

[Pat1956100]

Hi sunflower and welcome to the forum
Is there a reason you don't want to tell your doctor?  I am always concerned to give advice when someone has medical issues.  You have been on opiates for a long time.  Have you had any breaks inbetween?  
If you are adamant about coming off of them on your own, you should do a long, slow taper.  Make sure you take good vitamins and hydrate, hydrate.