When you give something up, you need something to replace it.
You could try an adult education class- wood working or something related to your job.
Reading- go get a library card.
You'll meet new friends along the way.
I also like affirmations.
Support groups. Church.
Remember drink lots of water. I like emer-c powder.
When you have a hole, it needs to be filled.
All the best. CRSeaside
Hi, welcome. Sorry, I had trouble understanding what you wrote. But, I think I get the gist.
With all due respect to the above poster, finding a hobby isn't going to keep you clean. You need to first STOP getting refills and having access to any. Look, I know you don't want to cut your friends out, but if the closest friends you have are using addicts, that's a problem. You can't get clean if you stay stubborn. This is life or death my friend. Cut off ALL access to pills. If you want, later, much later, when you are in strong recovery, you can revisit these "friends."
Cut all access and get your arse into a program. Many of us on here (most) who are successful are heavily involved in either NA, AA or both. Once we drop the drugs we have to work on our addict brains. You've been numbing yourself since you were a kid. You need lots of help.
Are you willing to listen to those who came before you? New people sometimes dig their heels and want to pick and choose what they listen to. If you want to get and stay clean LISTEN to what sober people are telling you.
Please keep posting, there will be more help coming.
Hi well I second what jifmoc said you need to distance yourself from those that use.....cut off all supply's ...and just because you stop the pills does not = recovery....your still left with the addict in your head that is alive and well....your going to need a progam of recovery for me N/A has been the magic bullet it treats the addict inside the meetings are only a hour long you will meet people that want to help it also gives you some place to share what is going on inside you with people that will understand this is a critical step for long term recovery it is not enough to just stop the pills....google a N/A meeting near you.....................Gnarly
I was in a similar situation....I did not want to let go of lifelong friends that still used. Sadly, even tho they also never pressured me, the fact that they were using made me jealous and want to use too. I had no money or health insurance. Every dollar I had went to drugs. But I got in a state funded methadone program and it changed my life. Methadone programs don't work for everyone. But I really wanted the sobriety because I wasn't even using to get high, just to feel unsick like you said. I worked the program, and by the time the state funding ended (after 1 year), I had my own heath insurance to continue the program and money again. You desperately need a program of some sort. U can't do this alone. Methadone Maintenance...even tho it is very daunting. Or na. U need to involve yourself with people who will be supportive in your recovery.
Hi...well as you can see getting clean is the ez part it is staying clean that takes the work aftercare is what your missing for me the N/A progam has givin me back my life ...it is free and the meetings are only a hour long it will give you some place to share what is going on with you where the people will understand.....with time and working the steps you will loose the very desire to use...something I thought was impossible....b/4 you give up or use again google a N/A meeting near you and go.....................Gnarly