need some calming words...please?

[dyingfornormality]

Im on my 6th day of CT off a month long relapse..I feel like Ive handled this W/D fairly well. I mean yeah it sucked but I put myself back here so I have to suck it up! Everyday Ive forced myself to do something..exersize, shopping, cleaning, anything to help myself mentally get through this. I want my life to go on...I want to be happy like I am on the pills w/o them. So Ive been trying to do the same things I do when on them. ANyway today Im kinda freaking out..really anxious (even thou I took 2, 2mg valium) I cant sit still, I feel "weird" is this normal? I thought I was doing so well and now I cant get out of this ansy feeling. Its like I want to flip the switch to feel okay but I cant reach it? Oh and my heart is racing..I feel like Im gonna have a panic attack!..

If anyone has ANYTHING to help chill me out...I would be so grateful!

[gizzy32]

Congrats on 6 days clean:) What your going through sounds very normal to me, although 6 days is great, it's so tough at first. There are ups and downs and adjusting to life without drugs is overwhelming.  When we start to crave, anxiety kicks in and our thoughts change. I felt like this everyday for the first month when i quit, it was actually scary. I am glad your keeping busy and getting exercise, it helps so much. It is a battle at first, but with support and talking about it like you are now helps so much. We can all relate to how you feel. Sometimes we just have to fight through weak moments and as I have learned, WE CAN"T DO IT ALONE. You will be ok and it will get bettter, I promise:) Keep posting!

[Lmommy719]

I feel so achy today, im on day 11 of  ct norco. I was feeling good but then it turned bad, I thought my symptoms would of passed my now i am sleeping, eating, but no energy or motivation and very sore... any ideas?

[dominosarah]

After you read the serenity prayer take some real good deep breaths...that really does work.  Turn on the music, play it loud or play it soft......get busy doing something...take a walk, clean a closet or something. Take a warm shower or bath.......This will pass.  You are in control of you now....not your addiction.  Keep fighting and stay strong.......sara

[dyingfornormality]

thank you..thank you..thank you

[mommy702]

Dear God,Grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things I can,and the WISDOM to know the difference.

[dyingfornormality]

thank you..and you're right. In the back of my mind I REALLY want to take a pill but I cant. So Im trying SO HARD to make things seem normal so I will not want to take pills anymore. total tug of war...

[birdie373]

Hi, it sounds like you are having a tug of war  b/w your addiction and your mind.. What I am saying is that you know you should not have took the pills but your addiction took over.  You need to realize this and maybe your panic attack may subside.  Panic attacks are do to something that you are fearing. In my opinion the panic attacks are do to the relapse(feeling like you failed, scared to retry life without medication, wanting to feel normal).  If you can pinpoint what you are fearing the panic attacks will subside.  You need to do relaxation techniques ( bathing, calm music, self talk, walking, yoga, etc). Remember at the begin of trying to be sober without meds or alcohol, the beginning is like eternity but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  One day at a time dear.  God Bless You.  P.S.  meds(valium) will act on what there are intended ( relax) to do or  the opposite (feeling anxious) if taken in large amounts.

[dyingfornormality]

Thank you..I am fairly new to this site and I mainly read everyone's advice and use what I need..but I dont say much. Im glad I did because just those words made feeling better! Its hard for people not going thru this terrible cycle of pill addiction to understand what you're really going thru! Its amazing how people on this site ban together and carry each other threw this..

feelingstupid..if I can do it..you can do it..we're all in this together..

thank you

[candothis247]

those symptoms you discribe are withdrawal symptoms, hang in there. it will pass, the valium will kick in. somethimes you just have to wait it out, i promise it will pass. congrats on 6 days. thats great!

[feelingstupid]

I know the feeling. The antsy part is getting me. I was that way earlier and I ended up jumping in the shower. I felt a little better. As I have been told there is always someone here to talk to. Today is my first day. I weaned off and I am watching the clock BIG TIME... I think it should be about 10 hours later so I know I can make it... 6 days is great! Keep it up hopefully I will be able to say I feel the same on my 6th day.