ok, i think i finally get it :-(

[BeyondScrewed]

To all of you who are frustrated with me, I understand. I think I finally accept that this monster has grown to the point of being WAY out of my contril and I need help. What changed you ask?
Ummmm, wow I am so so ashamed and embarrased. One of my, um, friends that I see every so often has a different DOC than me. Something that I haven't mesed with since I was a teenager. For whatrver reason, it just sounded really good to me last week. So, to my extreme shame, I tried it. And oh man, all the old love that I used to have for it instantly came flooding back. And before I knew it I had smoked 2 grams of blow. And now, with my horrible terrible addict brain , all I can think about is taking another pull.
So here is my question. I am willing to admit that it this point I may need to go to a 30 day program.  I simply cannot do it , however, until the middle or end of March. Please do not tell me that it can't wait and then it has to be done now and then nothing else important. I know how important it is. It just simply cannot be done now. So in the meantime, I know that there are n/a meetings, counselors, I just don't know what wud be the best or right for me. I wud appreciate ur opinions, but please don't tell me how stupid that was, pr that I'm going to die, etc etc. I know it was stupid. All I seem to do nymore are stupid things. I don't know where to even start with making decisions that aren't stupid.

[nursegirl6572]

"Based on the comments people are frustrated with him. So stop posting in them, stop reading them"

If we took that approach, no one would EVER benefit from the help here.  Many addicts deal with denial, and make excuses, some can be reached easier and quicker than others.

Being frustrated isn't a good reason, IMO, to not still try to reach out to a person.  Who knows which post may finally hit home.  We all want him to wakle up and "get it"...we want it more than him I think.

I truly believe his day will come, too...I just hope it's not too late.  The situation gets more and more critical by the day.

[maria920]

And I also hope he is OK. He was going down a very bad road.

[maria920]

Ballgame. Every time he posts this is how it is. He will post stuff like this and everyone will comment on it then normally he doesn't even write one comment back. He would normally pop back up when he has a new question tht could b a month. Hes been doing this exact same thing for MONTHS. Saying he can't lose his son or y today isn't good to stop,now his addiction is getting worse. No one here is trying to b mean to him or make him feel bad bit we have been trying to help him for many many more thts and I just do t think he wants it. He may say he does but Idk. We have tried the nice sweet approach and then it became tough love. Its frustrating to see new posts in a month about a different problem he wants help with but WONT EVER take advise tht is given.

[Pat1956100]

People didn't ever give up on me and I will never give up on anyone.

[Ballgame]

He hasn't posted since the 4th (today is 13th). Hope he is ok. You have to want to get clean and it's clear he doesn't. It's why I stopped posting in his threads ...until this one.
Based on the comments people are frustrated with him. So stop posting in them, stop reading them.  I hope he is ok but it's clear all the great advice isn't working

[Pat1956100]

Beyond,you should feel so grateful that you have all of these wonderful people trying to help you.  I mean everyone who takes the time to keep responding to your posts obviously care so much.  Nothing would make them happier than to see you succeed and stop using.
There is so much knowledge being shared with you from everyones years of pain.
I have no idea what to say to you and can only pray that you will soon listen to all of the advice that you have been given when you have asked for it.