Aa
on the road off hydrocodone
Hello all and first and foremost THANK YOU ALL! This message board has really been an inspiration. I am on day 4 cold turkey off 10/325 any where from 8 to 14 a day along with fentanyl 25 some days 50 others and when things ran short I could find time release morphine or oxys. Long story short isn't it funny how like minded people always seem to find each other. I have been doing this now 4 LONG years. Although the first 6 months or so I was close to the prescribed amount. Then I went from 7.5 to 10 and that was the beginning of where I sit today. In the last 4 days I have slept a total of maybe 6 hours the RLS for me is the worst. I took sleep mere on day 2 but still the RLS kept me up and I walked around like even more of a zombie. Today I feel somewhat okay but we will see what the night brings. I am scared and hope to get some sleep. All of the encourageing posts have been a life saver at all hours of the day and night. Thanks again and I will keep all posted.
I'm a recovering addict and wanted to say congrats to all of you for sticking with it. I'm very proud of all of you. I don't care if you have 4 hours or four days or 4 years.
One day you will all look back and vaguely remember how hard it was, so I recommend writing a journal of your daily struggles. I did this and it helped me on a day to day basis to keep front and center what I was trying to get out of my life and to keep going. I also did this when I quit smoking 19 years ago.....one day at a time....sometimes one minute at a time.
I trusted those who came before me and who had some clean sobriety and trusted what they told me, like those here helping each other. It will get better.
I'm now 27 years clean/sober and I'm going through a breakup with a man I love dearly who is using pain pills heavily. You all have helped me to let go with love. Lots of tears still, but letting go nonetheless.
The withdrawals will go away and get better whether you use or not. Better to not use and see the miracle unfolding. Life gets only better, your health will show that, your sleep will come and your love of self only grows.
I remember not wanting to go to any weddings because I couldn't drink or use when I first got sober. It was just too hard to dance without it and it sounded boring. Life was so boring without my mood altering chemicals. Eventually I learned to dance without drugs/alcohol again and have never looked back. Life is NOT the least bit boring anymore.
Hang in there. We enjoy going through the progress with you. I'm new here, but only hope to say something that might help you in your quest for true life. I love being clean/sober now. It's never a piece of cake, life still happens, I just take it as it comes now.
Love you all for your hard work. Wait for the miracle.
One day you will all look back and vaguely remember how hard it was, so I recommend writing a journal of your daily struggles. I did this and it helped me on a day to day basis to keep front and center what I was trying to get out of my life and to keep going. I also did this when I quit smoking 19 years ago.....one day at a time....sometimes one minute at a time.
I trusted those who came before me and who had some clean sobriety and trusted what they told me, like those here helping each other. It will get better.
I'm now 27 years clean/sober and I'm going through a breakup with a man I love dearly who is using pain pills heavily. You all have helped me to let go with love. Lots of tears still, but letting go nonetheless.
The withdrawals will go away and get better whether you use or not. Better to not use and see the miracle unfolding. Life gets only better, your health will show that, your sleep will come and your love of self only grows.
I remember not wanting to go to any weddings because I couldn't drink or use when I first got sober. It was just too hard to dance without it and it sounded boring. Life was so boring without my mood altering chemicals. Eventually I learned to dance without drugs/alcohol again and have never looked back. Life is NOT the least bit boring anymore.
Hang in there. We enjoy going through the progress with you. I'm new here, but only hope to say something that might help you in your quest for true life. I love being clean/sober now. It's never a piece of cake, life still happens, I just take it as it comes now.
Love you all for your hard work. Wait for the miracle.
Matt! You got 4 hours in a row last nite? That's pretty dang great! See that as a good sign. You are thru the acute wd's now more or less. And a full night sleep takes a while, so don't be upset if it doesn't come right away.
Also, you mentioned being irritable. That and other icky emotions are totally normal. If you feel depressed, it is part of the after effects. Don't let it scare you. I am 6 weeks (in a row) clean now and I still feel angry a lot. Our brains will take a while to regulate.
Anyway, kick arse job on your almost week:)
Also, you mentioned being irritable. That and other icky emotions are totally normal. If you feel depressed, it is part of the after effects. Don't let it scare you. I am 6 weeks (in a row) clean now and I still feel angry a lot. Our brains will take a while to regulate.
Anyway, kick arse job on your almost week:)
Unfortunately, sleep was the last thing to return for me. But I learned not to dwell on it. You'd be surprised how well you can function without sleep, for endless days without sleep, you can still function. It may not be the best you'll ever be, but you'll get by. You're going through a hard time in your life right now, and you're not the best you can be, but you're here. And you're here SOBER! Don't think about the little things, think about the big thing..,,sobriety! In time everything will fall into place. It really will. :) Promise!! Just keep rockin it...keep pushin on and keep your eyes on the prize :)
Well even if it didn't help the RLS I'm glad that blanket idea came in handy...it was somewhat of a permanent fixture in my living room recliner there for awhile. Lol.
And being irritable is just part of the process. I was such a biotch during detox. I was just SURE everyone would hate me by the time I got through. I was a little psycho...irritable one minute, happy the next, and crying like a baby two minutes later. Right now it's like you just gotta ride the waves...surf on the big ones, but just know it'll smooth out...then it's like water-skiing on an ocean of glass. (I live by a beach, so I speak in water terms. Lol).
You've got this...hands down. Don't give up! :) Good luck my friend.
And yes, I'd be appt to have you as a MH friend!
And being irritable is just part of the process. I was such a biotch during detox. I was just SURE everyone would hate me by the time I got through. I was a little psycho...irritable one minute, happy the next, and crying like a baby two minutes later. Right now it's like you just gotta ride the waves...surf on the big ones, but just know it'll smooth out...then it's like water-skiing on an ocean of glass. (I live by a beach, so I speak in water terms. Lol).
You've got this...hands down. Don't give up! :) Good luck my friend.
And yes, I'd be appt to have you as a MH friend!
Thanks all for the concern...super touching:) I can report another day clean and I did get about 4 consecutive hours of sleep. Still super hazy though:( I needed the electric blanket last night for the chills so credit to sweetness for that idea. Little irritable at times but sortta mellow just this minute. Can I add any of you super helpful family members as friends on here?
Hey Matt...just curious how you're doing!? Hope all is going well. Not much longer and you'll be through the rough physical part of it. Keep us updated :)
Hello Annie,
Thanks so much for checking in. On the plus side I can report another clean day. On the other hand work was as much fun as I thought it would be.(tongue in cheek) I suppose because I went there nervous and anxious and on limited sleep for 5 days and not with a positive outlook. I even said to one of my colleagues "I hope I don't look as tired as I feel" to which she agreed that I did...lol. so yeah I sure hope there is sleep on the horizon. I am so foggy and sluggish.
Thanks so much for checking in. On the plus side I can report another clean day. On the other hand work was as much fun as I thought it would be.(tongue in cheek) I suppose because I went there nervous and anxious and on limited sleep for 5 days and not with a positive outlook. I even said to one of my colleagues "I hope I don't look as tired as I feel" to which she agreed that I did...lol. so yeah I sure hope there is sleep on the horizon. I am so foggy and sluggish.
Hi Matt,
Was wondering how it went for you @ work & how you're doing. My deepest respect to you on your follow through with this! I know that it might feel like you can't maintain an hour longer right now but it turns out we're so much stronger than we've given ourselves credit for if we will but allow it. I'm looking forward to to your update & holding good thoughts for you, 'peace guy'. :))
Annie
Was wondering how it went for you @ work & how you're doing. My deepest respect to you on your follow through with this! I know that it might feel like you can't maintain an hour longer right now but it turns out we're so much stronger than we've given ourselves credit for if we will but allow it. I'm looking forward to to your update & holding good thoughts for you, 'peace guy'. :))
Annie
Hey matt just wanted to say good job on sticking with this. It really does get better but it takes time. I sent you a pm so check it out when you have time. Take care...
Sweet dreams and no worries at all! Rest assured that I will update and continue as things progress. Cant thank you enough for the support. Fingers crossed for you getting some nite nite.
OOPS my bad!
'Sorry dude. Peace dude (:
Watch out for the coffee- could make you super anxious.
Try tea instead.
Have an awesome day 5 and keep us posted! It's 2 am here and I'm hopefully gonna sleep
xo
Lu
'Sorry dude. Peace dude (:
Watch out for the coffee- could make you super anxious.
Try tea instead.
Have an awesome day 5 and keep us posted! It's 2 am here and I'm hopefully gonna sleep
xo
Lu
Good morning indeed Lu as it nears 4AM here. I think I might try coffee this morning before the hot shower that I have come to live for the past 5 days. The silver lining is that I will be in earlier then I ever have in the past I guess...lol. Thank you so much for being here and not that it matters but peace guy would be more appropriate. I saw that it defaulted to female in the profile so I didn't fix it till I even knew it existed. Much love from your neighbor to the south. You are a wonderful person!
May the sleep fairies visit you but sadly don't count on it (:
Just resting is enough. Yes you will feel like a zombie tomorrow (or today I should say) but you'll be surprised at how well you function and work is a great distraction from the other miseries.
Now would be a great time to do that Yoga Nidra relaxation. You may even drift off for awhile but at the very least it will put you into a relaxed state. Peace girl. You're doing so great.
xo
Lu
Just resting is enough. Yes you will feel like a zombie tomorrow (or today I should say) but you'll be surprised at how well you function and work is a great distraction from the other miseries.
Now would be a great time to do that Yoga Nidra relaxation. You may even drift off for awhile but at the very least it will put you into a relaxed state. Peace girl. You're doing so great.
xo
Lu
Thanks so much for the words of encouragement jifmoc! As I watch the clock pass the hours and the time is increasingly nearing that at witch I will need to be getting ready Idk how in the world this is going to work. Looks like day 4 ends like day 1. No sleep:( should be boat loads of fun. Never the less,yes indeed its day 5 and perhaps sleep on night 5?
Hey Matt. Good job on day 5! Time passes even though it doesn't feel like it. A lot of peeps say when they've detoxed that work has been a blessing. You will be distracted so that's something:)
You will look back at this time and the memory will start to fade, believe it or not. It's really just a blip of time. Guess what? You are probably thru the worst of it, maybe thru tomorrow, and it should get a little better.
If you have a lunch hour, take a small walk outside. Exercise increases the endorphins. I know it's cliche but it helps me: This too shall pass!
You can do it!
You will look back at this time and the memory will start to fade, believe it or not. It's really just a blip of time. Guess what? You are probably thru the worst of it, maybe thru tomorrow, and it should get a little better.
If you have a lunch hour, take a small walk outside. Exercise increases the endorphins. I know it's cliche but it helps me: This too shall pass!
You can do it!
You deserve all the accolade and be proud. Hard to see the light right now but I know its there and I'm determined. I am rocking the electric blanket as I type so time will tell. Idk what will happen if I don't get some sleep tonight. But whatever comes tomorrow is another day. And day 5 for me. The sad thing is that I had naively taken a leave of absence from work for the yesterday and today thinking I could be good in 4 days and took my last hydro on Friday. So back to work tomorrow is a very scary proposition. Not only for the fact that I feel out of sorts from lack of sleep but I have not been at the job off something in 4 years. Damn that is sad when type it out:(
Thank you mattcando...it's hard to believe..two years. I'm excited about it :) You'll get there too. Just keep doing what you're doing, and you'll be thru the physical soon. Hope the electric blanket works for you :)
Have an Answer?
You are reading content posted in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
Is treating glaucoma with marijuana all hype, or can hemp actually help?
If you think marijuana has no ill effects on your health, this article from Missouri Medicine may make you think again.
Julia Aharonov, DO, reveals the quickest way to beat drug withdrawal.
Tricks to help you quit for good.
A list of national and international resources and hotlines to help connect you to needed health and medical services.
Herpes sores blister, then burst, scab and heal.
Hang in there! It won't be long 'til you'll be turning the corner on the worst of those symptoms now. You were on an interesting drug 'salad' so it's bound to be a little rougher than what some might experience off a milder or single-opiate habit. :) You're a warrior!