please dont be offended at the rawness.

[cody315]

i had a drug problem up till monday. ive been clean now for about four days the wds are going away slowly but surly. i still feel like crap but im doin good. ive snorted vicodins for 13 yrs of my 21 yr old life my nose hurts of course, but i was wondering if any one had advice. 1st question: is there anyway my nose will get better or is the damage already done. 2nd question: this isnt really a question more like a how did u overcome your situation if it is at all like mine just wanted to relate to someone. thank you all for your help and advice.

[cody315]

im sorry but i lost my glasses so i didnt really read the whole question the first time tthrough 4 days ago is really the last time i used i was up to eight a day but over the period of time i wasnt on line i slowly weened myself down instead of quitting cold turkey i went from eight to seven an i didnt snort them my little bro would kill me hes the one  whos helping me the most i love my brother so much if it werent for him idk i would probly be lying to everyone right now but instead im actually clean and i feel good saying it i just hope my will is stronger than my addiction wds are horrible i thought i could slide past unscathed but i have night sweats its really hard to sleep i go to the bathroom constantly an eating is hard thats what hurts the most i can barly eat when i do i get sick thank you for your support

[cody315]

im srry my math is very wrong its more like 8 yrs. when i was typing i kinda felt nervous so i just guessed im very nervous when it comes to talking to strangers. but no one here is a stranger its like a giant family community that wants everyone to get better and feel good about themselves i was i think 14 when ii started

[MikeInFrance]

Wow Cody! That's hardcore for sure if I understand it right that you've been snorting vicodins since you were 8 years old. Is that what you are saying? That statement begs a thousand more questions! But right now let me tell you that you don't need to worry about the damage to your nose. You need to get off this sh*t now! Honestly I don't know if you will find others here that have that kind of history but what you will find are so many people that will offer you support and advice to get through this. Are you still using now? Or was 4 days ago really the last time?  How much were you or are you taking each day? Any other medical problems/medications being taken? These are very important questions to be able to help you. Stick around here for sure bro cuz this is the place to get all the answers and support to do this the right way.

[bettermomma]

Oh! And I forgot! Welcome to this forum. Hope you stick around, this is my saving grace, and many others as well. Keep posting, as often as you need to, someone will always be here for u! Good luck!

[bettermomma]

Well hun, I can't really answer your first question, but I had friends who had pin holes in the roof of their mouth, from snorting. I honestly don't know if that damage can heal... but I'm pretty sure that there are others here who can help you with that.

Now to your second question; I'm 45 days clean today. I can say that I have not overcome my addiction, but yet I embrace it. It is a part of me, that's a fact. I just choice to not allow that part of me to control "me" anymore. It was a choice for me... a necessary choice, and I'm very happy that I made it in fact. You see, I wasn't only addicted to subutex or just about anything I could fry my hands on, but I was addicted to my ROA. I injected some form of a substance for about 3 years. What I'm trying to day is, I was addicted to the needle. Plain and simply. It took me a long time to be able to say that even to myself.

Now, in my recovery and after detox, did I finally learn the key to success. Aftercare and a new way of thinking is what it took for me. We are all addicts of some sort here. You can relate to all of us, because it was a substance that changed us. Good luck hun! I'm rooting for ya!



Momma