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I am a 37 yr old female. I am a single mother of a 13 yr old boy. My parents died (murder,suicide) when I was just 14. I have no extended family. My son's father is in a different state and has no contact with us at all. I couldn't even find him if I tried. My problem is that I have borederline personality disorder, I am bipolar, and I have lupus. I have prided myself on relying solely upon myself and I must say that I have done quite well for the most part. 9 years ago I made the worst mistake of my life by getting involved in a relationship with a man who owns a few well established businesses with a very well to do income. He got me into cocaine...BAD MOVE on my part...we were married 2 years later. We have been married for 7 years. I do cocaine every day of my life. He still lives with the mother of his kids whom he was never married to because he says his 21 year old daughter, who at 12, didn't get along with my, then 4 yr old son, will run away if he moves in with me..so he comes every morning and leaves cocaine at my bedside....he feeds me when I wake then gives me cocaine til he leaves at 7pm, then he leaves me a pile of cocaine to get through the night. I am in no physical condition to work, I can no longer care for myself and I have gone over the edge many times......I have LITERALLY BEGGED HIM....not to give me anymore cocaine....I have BEGGED to go to REHAB.....We have no medical insurance, so I have been dealing with my lupus and mental illnesses on my own.......I don't know what to do...If I was handed a miracle of being able to get medical attention and rehabilitation..I am faced with another dilemma...no one to care for my son while I recover....I do not want him in foster care....I refuse that as an option.....HELP ME PLEASE..............I have lost my independence, my confidence, my beauty, and my will to live...... ALL OF MY CRIES HAVE FALLEN UPON DEAF EARS............................
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My thought is that Unheard needs professional help, and that posting here isn't going to solve her problem. She's in WAY to deep and beyond the help of us.  the focus is being taken off of Unheard as this continues and everyone is startiing to point the finger at each other.   I'm not trying to take anyone's inventory because I don't want anyone taking mine.  I also believe that Unheard is sitting at her computer snorting cocaine, getting toasted, and not making much sense.  The bottom line is she needs to pick up a phone and have someone come get her and bring her, even involuntarily, to a detox, because the ending to this story is not going to be pretty.  
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214607 tn?1287677559
Do us all a favor and only respond to a post that involves you if you are going to be negative and call us names. I was trying to help this poor girl out and nothing else.
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     I aplologize for insinuating you weren't telling the truth.  I only read the post and saw how people were on edge with each other .  I was only trying to defuse that a bit so they could focus on suggesting some appropriate advice.  I really don't know how to deal with a situation like that, but I do feel empathy for you.  Good luck and I hope that you can find something here, or anywhere that will ease your dillema.
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If the only reason you got married was so you couldnt testify against him then you made a BIG mistake. The law doesnt say that you CANT testify against your husband,,it says that you cant be FORCED to testify against your husband. So put his azz in jail. You also said your child has never seen you in an inappropriate state of mind but you say your husband keeps you using cocaine 24/7. A BIG reason to put him away if you mean your not seeing your child. Your 1st step is definantly to get hubby out of the picture. gl and keep posting
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I TOTALLY AGREE!!!!
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303824 tn?1294871401
I agree with IBKleen...the person that is starting this post isn't responding to ANY of the MANY she has started, so moving on is probably a good idea.
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