please help..percocet predicament

[readynow81]

I am so disgusted and mentally over taking percocet. But physically it isn't that easy. Have been taking about 12-14 5/325's for about 10 months. Lesser amounts before that. Have legitimate spine issues but would rather feel that pain than feel like garbage after taking all these pills. It may not be as much as others but its more than enough for me. no easy answer, i know. but ive had enough. suggest telling pcp?

[DarkEyedCreature]

Oh... I am so sorry you had a miscarriage. I have lost a baby at 10 days old, and it's horrible. Yes, you do have to say it out loud. It doesn't matter if you were 6 weeks or 6 months pregnant -- losing a child is a very sad thing. I am proud you are still able to clean... me... I slipped... I've been through a lot lately. I will talk more later.

[readynow81]

I haven't been on here in a little bit. Not bc I didn't want to or wasn't thinking about it.  On November 12 i got some terrible news after an awful night. ive been struggling ever since and am really depressed. and no, i havent relapsed. ive just not been ready to talk or do much for that matter. all my energy has gone into my boy. and now im being told im too dependent on my son. which i dont understand.  sounds ridiculous to me. maybe  if i just say it outloud, or type it actually, i can begin to face it.  so, i had a miscarriage. i know this forum is about addiction so i wont talk about it much. but thats what im dealing with. thats why i havent been on here. im still clean, but boy do i think about it now. i guess if my being sober is all i can control right now im just moving forward. i know its  not worth it to go back. I'm just sad, but I guess ill survive.

[laurel453]

Jessie, don't feel like a loser... you didn't want to become an addict, none of us... it is a disease, pain meds do change our brain receptors but living sober and working on our issues make a real difference, it might be a condition for life but things do get much, much better with time and working on ourselves...besides, many of this work should be done no matter if we were addicts or nor, all the people have issues and we'd better work on them... I feel much stronger knowing who i am and being an addict is not the end of the world, don't worry, you will be happy and enjoy life , of course !!! :) Besides, there is a time soon after detoxing that we go through a lot of emotions, those like blame and shame are on the way... don't dwell on them nor in the past, stay being positive and living the present the best you can... this is the best way to work also on the future, learnt from the past but don't beat yourself, please..:)

[mcfly19]

I just wanted to tell you - you are an inspiration to me. I recently (Sept 21) had surgery to repair 2 herniated discs in my neck. I've been taking 8-15 5/325 perc's since Feb of this year. I have begun a taper schedule, with the guidance of my Dr. I'm doing 11 pills a day for a week, then 10, then 9, etc. My worse w/d symptoms have always been RLS. That's the worst.
I know I can do it though and I want you know that reading your story gives me hope.

Here you thought you had a problem and you were all alone - but you are not! You will help a married man, father of 2, get through this. All because you had the courage and strength to help yourself. You are helping others! Keep it up! Don't look back and remember you are not alone. As I struggle and fight I will remember the people like you that have done the same and it will help me to push through the pain and discomfort.

Thank you for your help. May God bless you and your wonderful family!

[readynow81]

So I've made it another day. Ive done lots to keep busy today, but I was pretty anxious. I can say I didn't want pills, I think it finally hit home after my counseling appt that its a permanent fight. all day every day.
i feel angry that i did this to myself. living used to be easy, effortless. not so much work. i feel like a loser again today.. except im clean. i dont know, that counselor really made me think. but, not much i can do now . just look forward and be better to myself. hope everyone has a great night.

[laurel453]

this is the way with your counseling sessions, Jessie...well done, the first thing i promised myself when i started with my therapy was that i was not going to question any of her suggestions... this was not the time to question her but to follow her guidance, i said to myself. I am really happy that you are going to counseling because addressing our addictive behaviour is a must,... NA, therapy or counseling are different ways of addressing those issues.. they all work on cognitive behavioural therapy under different shapes... You are now living the pink cloud, be ready to face the time when life is life , no pink cloud, being clean is just not enough and those counseling sessions will help you find the tools to deal with life on life's terms and this is great, some days are good, some days are bad and some days s u c k :) but we can pull through all of them with a little help and working on ourselves, have no doubt :)  Hey, a leaf blower sounds fun , hahaha... i have always wanted to use one :) enjoy it !!