quitting hydrocodone cold turkey??

[triishh]

I posted here a while back about starting Suboxone treatment... well, upon further research, I discovered that Suboxone can be WAY worse than Vicodin/Norco.  So my Dr. & I discarded that idea.  Then we tried tapering... that didn't work, either, because I would always take another one when I started feeling withdrawals.  So now, I've decided to quit cold turkey, deleted all the drug dealer's numbers, told my Dr. to cut me off.  I want this crap to be over with sooo badly.  Anyway, I'm about to enter day three, after an 8-9 Norco a day habit, for about four months (my last dose was yesterday morning), and I've always heard that the third day is the worst.  I'm terrified of what's going to happen tomorrow... today was absolutely TERRIBLE, I have never felt so much pain and depression/anxiety/hopelessness in my life... my whole body hurts, couldn't keep ANYTHING down, every little thought I had would depress me, everything feels meaningless... even thinking about happy stuff made me even more depressed because I felt like they weren't real.  Idk, I kind of feel like I'm going crazy and I'm scared I've done permanent brain damage and that I'm always going to feel depressed.  I saw a psychiatrist today, and he gave me Valium to take the edge off... and some Lexapro, but I know that won't kick in for a few weeks.  Sorry for the long post, I just needed to vent to people who understand what it's like... my family and friends can only say "oh, just tough it out... it can't be that bad" and want me to go out with them and stuff. It's like, dude, you have NO idea... you're effin tripping if you think I'm gonna go eat sushi right now.  So I finally turned my phone off.  ANYWAY.... what I am asking is... besides the Valium, is there anything at all I can do to help speed up the process?  I have to go back to work on Monday.  I tried the Thomas recipe... didn't work.  The L-Tyrosine makes my stomach hurt and doesn't seem to do anything, anyway... the vitamins I can't keep down.  So yeah, any other suggestions?  Thanks for listening... I know I was rambling and that this was really long, but my brain isn't exactly at it's peak right now...

[gnarly_1]

Hi Triishh welcome to the forum glad you posted...well first off its sounds to me like your day 2 is going to be your worst day....its different for everyone don't read anything into it
this is a battle one or lost in ones own mind its 2/3rds mental and 1/3 physical although you probably feel just the opposite right now...on the bright side your withdrawal should end sooner rather then later you werent on them that long...but long enough to suffer the withdrawals ..im sorry to here you cant hold any thing down...you can get whey protein
at walmart for 12 bucks the chocolate flavor is good and its eazy on the stomach
its full of vitamins and amino acids it will make you feel better Im 192 days clean and I still drink 2 a day you mix it with 2% milk and a spoon nothing fancy give it a try...if you cant get out of the house the most therapeutic thing I found was a good hot soak in the tub it will help a lot with the aches and pains it will relax you and its ok to take several a day to eaze the withdrawals ...try not to get discouraged withdrawals are like having a bad case of the flu nothing anybody wants but it happens...your condition is only temporary in a few days you will feel better just hang on to that...I dont know if you believe in God or not and im not here to shove him down your throat ...but if you do praying seamed to help me quite a bit at 3am he's all you got..take sleep any where you can get it even if its just 20min here and there sleep takes a wile to come back...right now you just got to learn to be ok without being ok for a wile this to shall pass...keep comming on here and post your progress theirs lots of supporting people here your not in this alone where all here to help you thew it good luck and God bless.....Gnarly        

[worried878]

u will live thru this..and be better for it
4 months is not a long time....time of use and dose..as well as DOC all come into play...ur DOC is among the weakest..ur dose is not huge..and ur time of use is shorter than 90% of those posting here...u will be fine
the health pages are full of grat info on helping u along....being afraid is not helping...fear can dig deep holes and get u into deep doo doo
sometimes we have to put things in perspective..if u continue to use ur life will go downhill if u r an addict...there r folks out there dying of ovarian cancer...our country is slowly changing into sumpin we will not be able to recognize ten years from now
ur dilemna is real...but small in the scheme of things....continuing to use is and would be a huge disaster..it doesnt get better/only worse...tapering is hard for most....and it is great u made a plan...focusing on the negative will not help u move forward....attitude is 99% of stopping
expect the best..put the balls in ur court which u have done..educate urself and stick to ur plan
and seek aftercare and support..the gym or exercise will do wonders

keep posting

[triishh]

Oh, one more thing... what do you guys do when the urge to use comes back?  Today I've flip flopped between being disgusted with Vicodin and thinking that this sickness I feel must be something else because there is NO way a little white pill could cause this much pain... and the rest of the time knowing in the back of my brain that taking a vicodin or two could take all the pain away.  So far, the disgusted side is winning, but when I feel better, I don't know what's going to happen.