DAY 5 AND DOING GREAT...FOR NOW

[lexuskenna]

Well today has been the best day ive had in years! I feel great! The only wd symptoms I keep having are the feeling of being very cold, maybe I am just cold considering its 25 degrees outside.  Im guessing the worst is over and I just got really lucky. Now my mission is to get my best friend clean.  However now that ive quit she doesnt seem to have much interest to my best friend...i guess misery does need company.  Thanks for all your advice, thoughts and prayers! It was very comforting knowing that i wasnt doing this alone! ;)

[lexuskenna]

Thanks everyone! Yes, gnarly, i agree, I think i will get some aftercare help.  But I am very strong minded, once i tell myself to do something, i just do it (i sound like a nike commercial LOL). For example, my fiance had to get his tooth pulled today and he got prescribed vics and i literally had no feeling of wanting to take one, it almost made me sick to my stomach. Im my own worst critic, I hate myself for letting this go on for so long! And yes, tryingtoquitasap, I Know EXACTLY how you feel. When i first quit, i kept thinking, "how am i supposed to live now, what am i going to look forward to" but today i actually felt what it feels like to be "normal" again! ANd i have to say it feels GGGGGRREEAAT! I also thought about how much $ ill be saving lol.  I now know the worst is over and its time to start living again!  And again, thank you everyone for comments and support! <3.....Me ;)

[tryingtoquitasap]

Congratulations, as well! I too am on day 5. Isn't it amazing what you've been missing? I got up this morning and looked outside to see the sun hitting the rain on the ground in the most beautiful way, and what struck me was that my body actually reacted to a positive event on its own for the first time in months, rather than being the same constant level of "happy" before and after. Like my reward mechanisms in my brain are actually beginning to work again. Are you experiencing the same?

As much as my subconscious wants that buzz, my conscious mind knows it's much better without it. The struggle is hard but if you stay determined you can do it. Just think about how much money you'll save not buying this **** every day! Don't think about "never" using again, because that's a hard prospect to comprehend for me, at least. Just focus on not using in that moment, and the next moment will come easier.

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats on 5 days clean ...I agree with Lisa kicking is just the beginning now comes the work....staying clean....as a whole the forum recommends some form of aftercare we always suggest N/A or A/A because there free and they work for a lot of our members you will be around clean people and be able to share your struggles with others that will understand where your coming from...if not that there are addiction therapist and substance abuse conslors that can help you threw the ins and outs of addiction...as addicts we need to change the very way we think to overcome this disease your off to a good start please dont skip this critical step...I wish you all the best with your recovery good luck and God bless......Gnarly    

[10356]

Congrats on 5 days !! try not to get lost in your new mission ok for it takes the person using to do the actual deciding on to kick our not. takes a lot more then just stopping.. it takes a full on revolt against everything that has to do with our addiction... Be kind to yourself and again Congrats ! lesa