rehab

[jsharp]

I have been addicted to pain killers for 6+ years. I've decided that enough is enough & I can't continue to live like this anymore. I am 3 days clean & currently going through withdrawls. I can not afford rehab, or have anyone to care for my children if I could afford to go. I don't know if wanting to quit & change my life is enough for me to kick this. My husband knows about my addiction, I went to him for help. He doesn't understand why I can't just stop. He says he'll be there for me, but does nothing to help me. I feel like he's just waiting for this to pass. I've told everyone in my family my problem, but I don't feel like anyone really cares. No one calls to see if I'm doing o.k or if I've had a bad day & need to talk. And if I call them I feel like I'm just a burden on them. I feel stuck in this cycle of addiction I'm in because I don't know what to do. HELP

[RionV]

Hey there! You really are just around the corner, i'm talking just a couple of days from not feeling yucky! Please, first try to do this on your own, if you feel a weak moment, get on here and read, it helped me SO much!!!
Everybody here is so friendly and helpful, you can tell them things you wouldn't be able to tell some other people.
About the suboxone, I spoke anonymously over the phone to a nurse about that, told her how much and what I was taking and she was almost, completely against suboxone, she told me it really was worse than hydros, and my cousin did replace her opiate addiction with suboxone, i'm not a nurse i'm just telling you what the nurse told me.
But if you do reach that point of not being able to do this on your own, some people do NEED suboxone, it just depends on the person I think.

[jsharp]

My drug of choice was hydro. I went to the ER yesterday b/c I was so scared. I was dehydrated & my blood pressure was really low. I told them I was so sick from withdrawling from the pain meds. They gave me an IV & sent me home with hydro 5mg. They only gave me 12, & told me to take them only when I start feeling sick again. I'm trying really hard to do that, but if I had control I wouldn't be in this situation in the first place. I have an appointment in 2 weeks to talk to a rehab Dr. about suboxone. I've heard good & bad things about it. My husband thinks it's a bad idea. He said I shouldn't trade one pill for the other, but I don't think I can do it on my own. The mental w/d are worse for me but the physical w/d suck *** too.

[worried878]

ur dose and DOC is important to share so peole get an idea of where u r at..if u r wd-ing from narcotics then CT is fine for most...u may need to share with a DR who can help u with safe meds to help u right now,,,,also the thomas recipe combined with exercise rox!
keep posting

[gizzy32]

Congrats on 3 days clean, your almost through the worst. Remember that for someone that has never been addicted, it is impossible for them to truly understand, i didn't either before, but do now. Addiction *****, but we can break this cycle. There is help out there and rehab is not the only option. Have you ever thought about trying N/A or any other aftercare to stay clean.

I think the fact you have told people and admitted your problem is a HUGE step and should be very proud of yourself for that. Keeping it a secret keeps us sick. Stick around this is a great support group. Look in the top right of this page. You will see health pages and in there the thomas recipe, the amino acid protocal and lots of other great info and help. Good luck and stay strong!

[GottaQuit]

Hi ... What exactly were you taking and how much?  Many of us cannot afford rehab or have the resources to take care of our families while we detox and get well enough to take care of our family OR ourselves.

You say your hubby knows about addiction -- If he truly does, then he should understand why you can't just quit.  Have him read the posts here.  Help educate him AND yourself as you head down this road.  It doesn't end when you're done with the physical w/drawls.

Go to the health pages and read: Fighting relapse... "Dopamine and addiction."

Perhaps your family and everyone you've told simply aren't aware how big a deal this is and the huge challenges you face.  Or they simply can't relate and don't know what to say or how to help.  Granted a "how are you?" would be nice, but am guessing they just don't understand and are perhaps a bit intimidated.

There's tons of help here!  And tho individual circumstances may vary, we're all fighting the same battle!

Good for you on taking your first steps... What are you currently going thru as far as your w/drawl symptoms?

Keep posting!  We all want to help but need to know specifically what you're dealing with to give you specific advice.

DON"T get discouraged... and KEEP POSTING!

XOXO

[tooklastdose]

you have come to the right place.  we are all here to support you.  day 3 is the worst.  hang in there, you can do it.  
I'm on day 7 and doing better each day.