relapsed lost my hope

[dmay74]

i dont know what happened i was sitting around two weeks ago depessed and talked myself into using vics again, and here i am mad at myself going through withdrwals thinking killing myself is the only way to stop, im going crazy .i now realize i dont have as much control over myself as i once did. all i do now is see how terrible my life is and wish i could get it over because there was a time when i cared but vicidin has enslaved my soul so if i cant live for me why should i live for vicidin.......?

[road2recovery]

Did you try meetings?  a counsouler?? Some sort of aftercare besides this forum,  IMO i have learned it is the only way, at least for me.....Reach out for help, you will be surprised ..

[badsneakers]

Her name says it all for all of us here....



SMARTYETSUPID!

[SmartYetStupid]

Oh honey..... I'm sorry.  It's OKAY though.  Don't beat yourself up!  Just do like before, maybe do a slow taper and quit!  Relapse is very common.  Again, don't beat yourself up...

[badsneakers]

Get support!  tell your best friend, don't be alone!  people love you and will help you, but right now you need to be face to face honest with somebody you trust...get a real live angel somehow...hang in there and stay on here...it's helping me just to know that i'm not alone...oobladiooblad life goes...for all of us and YOU to...it willllllll get better....

peace and love

Badsneakers

[dominosarah]

Those pills dont have to enslave you anymore.  Take a stand and take back your life.  We are here to help you..........sara

[liscamdave]

Actually, realizing that has brought you further then you think. When we do realize we are powerless over our addiction is when we are on the right track towards actually quitting. You need to focus on your aftercare and support. These things are huge in recovery. I know its hard, but it can be done. So if you fall off, you try again. It took me a few tries to get it right, and tomorrow will be one year. If you need any help whatsoever..just ask.

lisa

[Winbear]

Hang in there.  I am on day 2 after I relapsed for 3 weeks.  The only way to get where you want is to just start over.  You are already almost there as you have written about your relapse and struggle.  Most of the folks on this site who are clean have relpased, some many times.  I have been dealing with my sobriety since september and it has not been easy.  Just stick with it and feel positive that you are back on this site looking into getting back off the pills.