sAD DAY

[hungouttodry]

tHIS MORNING AS i SAT IN MY FRONT YARD ABOUT 7AM i WATCHER AS THE CORONERS WAGON PULLED UP IN FRONT MY FRIENDS HOUSE i THOUGHT ON HER FATHER OR MOTHER HAD DIED. i WENT TO HER DOOR AND THE CORONER PASSED UP HER HOUSE AND WENT OUR OTHER FRIENDS HOUSE, i ASKED THEM A QUESTION AND COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT THEY WANTED TO TALK TO DEBBIE, IMMEDIATLY MY MIND WENT TO dEBBIES SON dUSTIN. jUST LAST WEEK i SPOKE WITH HIM ABOUT HIS PLL AND ALCHOL USE, TOLD HIM IF HE DIDNT STOP IT WILL KILL HIM. tODAY AT 9 17 AM HE WAS PRONOUNCED DEAD FROM OCVERDOSE OF VALIUM AND ALCHOL. i FEEL SO BAD CUZ IN THE EARLY DAYS OF C/T HE WAS THE ONE THAT OFFERED ME VALIUM. |||||||iM JUST SO SORRY THAT I COULDNT REACH HIM BUT HE WAS DUSTIN. RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE SUCH A PHONEY CUZ I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE WISER ONE AND LET MY GUARD DOWN AND ACCEPTED THOSE PILLS FROM HIM. IF I HAD NOT AND HAD A TALK WITH HIM EARLIER HE WOULD BE ALIVE TODAY. I KNOW THAT IS ALOT TO CARRY ON MY SHOULDERS SO I HAVE TO LET IT GO FOR MY SAFE RECOVERY. THANKS FOR LISTENING AND GOD BLESS LUV U ALL

[laurel453]

sorry, hungout... he was so young .... keep on your determination, you have fighted a lot of stuff and you can do it but i am really sorry for Dustin and his family.

[Oxy480Jim]

But then there would be the "wish I coulda's"

[Oxy480Jim]

Everyone in the entire world would would be in prison if  "should have's" and "what if's"  
were an indictable offence.

There is no way to prevent them, but you CAN reduce them if you live a clean moral life.

[hungouttodry]

day 60 offically good day if I hadent of had these anxieties in my legs today. Couldnt sleep lastnite till around 3 am woke up at 5 am, Had anxieties most of the day but dealt with it by walking it works for awhile, just gonna tuff it out. Might have something to do with Dustins passing dont really know, I do know I have to deal with it on my own without taking sleepihg pills or any other kind of drug. I have come this far and I refuse to let this hold me back I WILL WIN THIS FIGHT no other option. I still have melatonin and sleepy time tea and velarian root to help me sleep if I need it. I hope all my friends out there have had good days or as good as it gets.||Well God Bless and good luck

[gnarly_1]

SO sorry to here this news it a sad day when anyone life gets cut short to drugs but people need to know this is a life and death game they play if you loose you dont get a second chance sorry you have to go threw this but remember it could be you there wheeling out
......Gnarly

[dominosarah]

I am so sorry to hear this.  It is always such a tragedy.  It always breaks my heart.  My thoughts and prayers go out to you and his family~~sara

[littlebit010101]

Oh this makes me so sad.....how I hate how we judge other people....how sad bc of his sexuality he was tormented....he should be able in our society to be accepted as he was...who cares about sexuality....why is it so important...my heart is truly broken....sorry for your loss and no its not ur fault we all walk our own destiny...and make our choices....just grieve for your loss of a friend....its ok to cry it renews u and gives u strength....take care friend....

[hungouttodry]

u r truly an amazing women u truly r. im praying for u and every one of our friendson here every day . i thank u for all tour support, as far as Dustin it is just so sad cuz he was only 24 just a baby he just wasnt ready or I really think he was just ready to cuz he had o/d on pills and alcohol 2 times in the last 3 months. I guess he was just tired of dealing with his sexuality. He was such a nice kid just couldnt figure out his way in life. So god bless him and all my friends on this site I hope and pray for u to get through this in good health.

[donewitis]

It's not your fault. It could have been any one of us..you "but for the Grace of God go I" It is sad no doubt, a mother should not have to bury her son. You were in no condition to help him..you were sick yourself. As you know, you can't stop a person who doesn't want to stop. Don't be so hard on yourself. It's a time to grieve, but also to be thankful for what you have been given. May God give Dustin the peace and rest that he could not find here.