some things that helped me recover from heavy opiate withdrawal

[oneway]

First of all I wanted to tell everyone who does not know, that I have been clean for almost a year I think.  I actually stopped counting.  I was injecting 20 80mgs of oxycotin a day.  This is not a lie it is true and I'm not trying to brag but just trying to say that almost any amount can be overcome.  I actually saw someone post that they were doing 2300 mgs day.  I was extremely sick for 3 months.  Somethings that were a miracle in my recovery should be shared with those trying to overcome withdrawals.  First of all nothing helped for the first month.  But one thing that was absolutley essential to my recovery was using a juicer.  Do some research on juciers and you will be amazed!  They can actually put hep C in remission, also lifting weights and forcing myself to do hard exercise made me feel much better but you really have to muster up every ounce of strength that you have to get yourself to go.  Hot showers were a tempory relief.  Tyrosine helped with my cloudy headed feeling.  I cannot tell you how much pain I was in, I actually locked myself in the bathroom for a half hour with a 9mm to my head because I thought it would never end but I started forcing myself to leave the house and go out in public which actually made me feel better.  The energy was the last thing to come back but working out and juicing was a amazing help.  I just wanted to share with newcomers some things that helped me.  If any of you have any questions please feel free to message me.  Never give up even when you **** up because mike jordan missed a million jump shots before he nailed some.  Losing hope is the most detrimental thing in my mind to recovery so please people keep your hopes up and it will eventually come through.  Also negative and degrading things to a persons character on these forums has been much higher since I first joined medhelp.  Please try to be understanding and positive towards others because for me I needed to have words of encourgement and not words that made me feel like a dog being kicked when it was already down.  Were all fighting for the same thing so lets come together.

Stay Strong Everyone.

[oneway]

lisa its good to hear from you.  You and I can really understand that high dosage mayhem God I will never go back to that and I hope you don't either.  How is the sub?

[oneway]

yeah it is ok to take it for the first day but it might make your heart race but my heart was racing from the dope sickness.  So just take what you feel is a comfortable amount.  It really didn't help me until the latter half when I was over the worst but was depressed and draggy.

[MissBecca24]

I read something where it said that Amsterdam and Norway are such happy places because the government says that if you treat people like criminals they will act like them!! They dont treat them like criminals and there you have a country that has little to no violence! its amazing! Funny how when people understand you and you dont have to feel backed into a corner what you will do ! just knowing that someone understands can change someone!

[Imtired]

Back to the L-Tyro, or if anyone else has an answer, would it be ok to take it the first day of wds?  I did that last time and I could really feel my heart beating the first hour or so.  Is that part of it?  

[liscamdave]

Honey, I am soooooo glad you are back. I missed you....and thanks so much of the post of hope. I remember when you were beginning your w.d and how hard it was for you. I am so happy to hear that is has almost been a year. You are awesome...

xoxo, Lisa

[oneway]

all good and I read that you actually need to take it for pain which is something that I never experienced and is probably a horrible monkey wrench in quitting.  Man these drugs are so f#@ked up.  

[hope08]

oh no i totally did not mean to come off that way....your post WAS encouraging and helpful. i usually just compare my hardships/trials to others to kind of put me in check so i don't feel sorry for myself. i hope that doesn't come off wrong....kind of similar to americans complaining about how we need more stuff, food, etc....but then you go to another country and see what they go through on a daily basis and it changes your point of view. does that make any sense?

i am happy you made the decision that you did....:)

[Junkie]

I hear ya man. Not only is it pure shock to look at your past drug use, but also even more shocking when you realize, "I'm not dead!". I have looked down that path way too many times, and I count my lucky stars, cigg's or whatever that my arse is still here.

It's scary when you start to sober up to reality and think of how much sh*t you put into your body. Even now, although I am tapering off of huge amounts, I am disgusted at how many I got up to, and how many other drugs I was mixing it with. Like a freakin' molotov cocktail straight to hell and I am driving the bus.

I truly think it takes hitting rock bottom for someone to really look inwards and see what kind of damage they are doing to not only themselves, but to loved ones. I feel selfish because others want to spend time, go out, be a family, and all I want to do is get high.

9mm to the head, well, gee, that would have worked. But, it's a good thing you woke up and stopped the nightmare. It takes a strong person to start loving themselves enough to want to live, from a junkies standpoint at least.

Congrats to you, and keep the gun away from the bathroom and your head. Life is too short to let a synthetic monster kill you. : )

I have yet to see any negativity on the forum, but I would be pretty disgusted if I did. I just recently started posting here and everyone seems to be pretty decent.

This is a place for addicts who want to get some help, and need to know there are thousands like themselves that are going through the same song and dance. Any negativity here would be just plain disrespectful and SUCK! Take petty high school spats else where, and let the rest of the club do what we came here for.

Peace

[oneway]

I have to be honest with you.  I got through it because I was afraid to kill myself.  I can't believe I'm actually going to say this but if I wasn't afraid to kill myself I wouldn't be typing this right now.  Also I kept imagining how good it would be if I was not a prisoner to this and that kind of gave me motivation.  But I will say this If I ever got up to that amount again I don't think I could make it.  I have one more relapse in me but not one more recovery.  It just took to much out of me to ever do that again.  Words cannot describe what kind of hell I felt.  I can't even describe it.  God, higher power, spirituality,or whatever want to call it had to have been a factor because when I look back on it I don't know how the f@#k I made it sometimes.  That is the honest truth.  Some days I just had to trust that something beyond me would get me through it.  I get the chills thinking about it.  SCARY!

[Calzy]

Thanks for coming back and sharing your story of your recovery with us. It hard to see beyond the darkness of this disease when in early recovery but i hope those in their first few weeks of recovery can read your post and be encourged to keep trying for a better life ahead.
I will try the juice thing, live food makes sense, i just found my juicer the other day collecting dust and never used it.

[wait2long]

that is kind of odd, Norway?  i would have guessed a tropical paradise...but proof about what being positive can do..i have a hard time with this myself...i live in northern NH, and depression runs rampant up here...lack of sunlight (SAD- seasonal affective disorder)  but all in all everyone here just pushes on through the long exhausting winters with the positive thinking of spring will come soon...i am working on trying to be more positive myself., which is hard when you suffer from depression, but i am working on this because i need to learn how to be positive, i have been negative for too long...and it does wear on a person after time...so i get exactly what you are saying...

[kit10]

I cannot imagine the torture that you endured. I am struggling right now with 240 mgs. of oxy a day. I was snorting them rather than shooting them . I know my own personal hell just coming off of what I had built a tolerance for, my god, that is amazing that you are still here with us. Perhaps to tell your story and be an inspiration? Glad you are w us and on the straight.

Much love and Peace from Ky,
Jess

[oneway]

I really had no intention of trying to make others feel weak.  I just wanted to make feel like then can get through it if they maybe heard about someone else succeeding.  Maybe I came off in the wrong way.  I actually was trying to show people that their is a ending.

[hope08]

that is amazing. it makes me feel like a complete wussie for even being all upset about wd's from vicodin....i am glad in a sense, because i feel like i can relate more to people that are stuggling with a current addiction (i know a good amount) and maybe give some advice even...
but anyway, congrats on being clean for so long, that is awesome!!!

[oneway]

I take it when I feel like I am having a bad day but I did take it everyday at first.

[Imtired]

I exercise almost everyday.  One reason is I'm also an instructor.  I have been telling myself that this will be not only a true test of my inner strength, but will help my body as well.  I also have been thinking about the juicer thing.  Just bought an electric blankie so I might have to wait on another cc purchacs for now.  lol. You know how money is when you've been buying off the streets. And yes, the posts lately have been a bit disturbing.  I don't post much, but decided to to yours to get the positives back in here.  Thanks and you're quite an inspiration.
O and I have some of the L-Tyrosine. Haven't really tried it long term yet. Do you take it everyday?

[oneway]

You know it is funny.  I watched a show about which were the happiest countries in the world and to my surprise the happiest countries were not the really sunny beautiful ones.  The happiest countries was Norway which is cold and rainy.  They said that most of the happiest countries were happy because of a strong non judgemental community.  It just shows you that being around understanding people is important in life and happiness.

[wait2long]

CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU!!! you have overcome and won a huge battle, you have a lot to be proud of...
any helpful advice is useful here, it WILL help someone, everyone is different when it comes to withdrawals, glad you shared your experience, you have done well!
and yes...we have to stick together and try to continue the support here, i agree...