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starting another thread here would love to see some people post here
hi, i got 22 days clean today:) feeling pretty good for the most part certain times throughout the day i am exp this wierd feeling it is like a craving not that i want in my head i am not battling that but a physical one u know when u r hooked to the pills and havent done detox yet when that pill time comes around u start feeling that crappy feeling?? that is how i feel it last for about up to a hour then goes away is that what they call a craving? i dont think about the pills and i dont battle w myself in my head jsut still having some physical feelings that come and go. Anyway i have another post i have been doing but getting kinda long so i though i would start a new one. Also i have a few people posting and they all stopped but 1 i have been posting alot to bring it back to the top but not getting anyone else to way in i would really appreciate if i could get some support or people posting with me i like to see encouraign stories from others and just people going through the same thing i have considered stopping posting because of this but i really need this and i enjoy coming to it during the day... anyway u can go read my other thread to get some backround thanks for any input and congrats to those that r reclaming their lives we can do it
sorry I had to go so abruptly - my son was trying to read what I was typing. I had when he does that. I feel like I have no privacy.
I hope your blood sugar gets straightened out.
I go to see my dr tomorrow. Going to tell him about the depression and ask if I should change to another AD. Will let you know what he says.
It is amazing how many people post here that are so much worse off than me in some ways (severely addicted not detoxed yet). But I still can't shake this awful depression.
I go to see my dr tomorrow. Going to tell him about the depression and ask if I should change to another AD. Will let you know what he says.
It is amazing how many people post here that are so much worse off than me in some ways (severely addicted not detoxed yet). But I still can't shake this awful depression.
thanks Ann feeling a bit better today tho i jsut had a major drop in my blood sugar and it really made me feel crappy. I am currently on insulin and i took it this am and it dropped it immediately which is not usually the case i think my meter may have been wrong... when i took my insulin. anyway i am going to send u a message so i wont write too much here.. feeling pretty good here from the pill aspect i am at day 31 and cant believe its been a month really looking forward to the next couple weeks and getting even better. I did not have restless legs too bad last night and slepyt almost all night could they be going away??? i sure hope so i did take 2 of my requip so not sure if thats what helping or if they r just going away... anyway i am so happy to see so many people choosing to regain their lives from this crap... i hope u start to feel better soon u need some better support so u can get out of this depression... been praying for u and i will share some Bible verses later w u... do u have a church u can go too?? i really hate to see u r so depressed because u should be SOOOO happy that u r clean... blessings to u and all who r reading i hope people go back and see my journey on here because they can see it CAN be done
Sorry you feel so badly. I hope you feel better. glad you had fun trick or treating. My cold symptoms are better today but my depression is worse.
hi jsut wanted to pop in for a sec i will have to post a littel later from ur post i think i have the flu and i dont feel well at all gonna try and lay down when i lay josiah down in a bit... jsut wasnted to let u know everything is ok and we had a great time trick ir treating tho i feel like i have been hit by a bus:(
I took 1/2 a Clonidine to see if that will help at all with the cold symptoms.. At this point I can not tell if the cold is related to WDs or not.
I forgot to answer some of your questions from yesterday. I did take the z-pack as prescribed and a got a little relief. Now I am taking Benadryl non-stop. If I don't start feeling better in a couple days I am going to try something else OTC. I tried some cold-eeze lozenges. They taste terrible. I am going to try it one more time. I feel badly for complaining so much but my husband does not give me any sympathy. He just walks away when I tell him how badly I feel. Is not all bad though. He has cooked dinner almost every day for the last 3 weeks and hasn't complained about it at all. Reading and posting on this site help me keep my mind off of how badly I feel.
I hope the ace bandage is the solution you have been looking for. That is too bad that you didn't sleep well even with the Ambien.
If you come across any particular verse in the Bible that you find is helpful let me know what it is so I can look it up.
I take Celexa 40mg for depression. I do not feel like it is helping at all. Maybe it can't help because of how opiods affect endorphins.
I hope the ace bandage is the solution you have been looking for. That is too bad that you didn't sleep well even with the Ambien.
If you come across any particular verse in the Bible that you find is helpful let me know what it is so I can look it up.
I take Celexa 40mg for depression. I do not feel like it is helping at all. Maybe it can't help because of how opiods affect endorphins.
do u take anythign for depression? i have never had much exp w it but i know it is not good.. i hope u can get it under control u r in my prayers and YES reading in the word def helps... i dont feel liek it sometimes wither but i jsut get it out and talk to God start reading and i feel like a milion bucks after:)
of coarse i will eat josiah's candy lol thats the plan:) i dooo love to clean and my husband loves to clean lol so we have a clean house i love to rearrange furniture too i get bored to easyt of the same set up...
i do think the lack of sleep has affected my mood big time i have been getting very annoyed the other day i didnt even want to see the sunlight:( i didnt sleep well last night even w the ambien i did wrap my legs w ace bandages and i think it helped i did start to get RLS this am so i got up but if that really works i am gonna cry of happieness and scream that i let myself be tortured by rls w sucha simple solution avail lol... well i better get busy gonna have a long day today i will check back sometime later have a good day today:)
of coarse i will eat josiah's candy lol thats the plan:) i dooo love to clean and my husband loves to clean lol so we have a clean house i love to rearrange furniture too i get bored to easyt of the same set up...
i do think the lack of sleep has affected my mood big time i have been getting very annoyed the other day i didnt even want to see the sunlight:( i didnt sleep well last night even w the ambien i did wrap my legs w ace bandages and i think it helped i did start to get RLS this am so i got up but if that really works i am gonna cry of happieness and scream that i let myself be tortured by rls w sucha simple solution avail lol... well i better get busy gonna have a long day today i will check back sometime later have a good day today:)
Hi - I have had depression off and on for about 18 years. This morning was really bad but I started feeling much better by this afternoon. I know that if I read my bible more it would help. I am just so not in the mood to do anything. The only thing I do that requires effort is post on this board in addition to taking care of my son.
My son is going to be a spy for Halloween. I am just so lucky my husband is taking him. I would be so miserable trying to get up the strength to try and walk around the neighborhood in the freezing cold weather. I know my son will want to be out for hours and he won't even eat the candy. We still have some candy from last Halloween. Any time that we have given out candy only about three groups of kids have shown up. Our house is on main street in the town we live in but the houses are all large and are not close to each other so it takes a long time to go from house to house. If my husband wants me to give out candy I will. Just realized, Josiah won't be able to eat most of the candy he gets. I guess you will have to eat it! They say chocolate helps with depression.
I can't believe you rearranged your house! I couldn't even rearrange one dresser drawer if I tried. And you love to clean?? I absolutely hate to clean. I have a cleaning service come to my house once a month.
I am glad you have the Ambien. I understand that you can't wait until 1am. If your son is up at 5am you need to take that pill much earlier than that. I think I may have told you before but sleep deprivation can cause severe depression very quickly. I went 6 days in a row without sleep once. It was a living hell.
I can't believe your son takes 3 naps a day! that is great for you to get some down time. Wh en he gets a little older I guess it will be time for #2? :)
My son is going to be a spy for Halloween. I am just so lucky my husband is taking him. I would be so miserable trying to get up the strength to try and walk around the neighborhood in the freezing cold weather. I know my son will want to be out for hours and he won't even eat the candy. We still have some candy from last Halloween. Any time that we have given out candy only about three groups of kids have shown up. Our house is on main street in the town we live in but the houses are all large and are not close to each other so it takes a long time to go from house to house. If my husband wants me to give out candy I will. Just realized, Josiah won't be able to eat most of the candy he gets. I guess you will have to eat it! They say chocolate helps with depression.
I can't believe you rearranged your house! I couldn't even rearrange one dresser drawer if I tried. And you love to clean?? I absolutely hate to clean. I have a cleaning service come to my house once a month.
I am glad you have the Ambien. I understand that you can't wait until 1am. If your son is up at 5am you need to take that pill much earlier than that. I think I may have told you before but sleep deprivation can cause severe depression very quickly. I went 6 days in a row without sleep once. It was a living hell.
I can't believe your son takes 3 naps a day! that is great for you to get some down time. Wh en he gets a little older I guess it will be time for #2? :)
hi ann sorry about ur sinus infection those r really painfull and annoying.. is there any otc things u have tried i dont know if they have anything for sinus infection a antibiotic should have cleared it up if it was the right kind they usually do like a z-pack i think for that. it may be a little run down from w/d's still i know i dont really feel good all the way. I read on someones post that after a month the endorphans are only back 50% AHHHH i wanted to scream i thought my brain would be producing them feel good thingies by itself by now or at least more than 50%... this takes FOREVER i am NEVER going back my body jsut cant take it and it is soooo not worth it...
i only have 10 ambian that i have had actually it was a remainder of a refill i forgot i had from a while ago so i got it filled. i have taken it before but i never took it faithfully every night Lord knows i dont want to get addicted to something else they r 10 mg and i am going to break one in half tongiht instead of a full one. I cant wait till 1 am to take it i have a baby to get up w at 5 am lol i will be way to tired...
i actually have neaurotin but i cant stand the way that stuff makes me feel so i dont take it. i am hoping this rls does not stick around that is what i am worried about that i have the actual disorder now because it is a real thing. I took 2 of my requip tonight just a few min ago they r only .50 mg so by taking 2 i took 1 mg hoping maybe my dose has jsut been to low and it will work better i have taken it in the past and it worked but now this time. I have had different bouts of RLS while withdrwaing before and also when i was pregnant. i also got a ace bandage that is the ONLY home remedy i have not tried is wrapping my leg w it people say it works but i have also tried everythign else people say works and it DOESNT but i am hopefull still..
i am soooo excited about taking josiah trick or treating my husband gets to get off work early sinece he worked so long on sat so we r gonna tek him to my grandpa's around 2:30 then the business's downtown have it from 3-5 then we will go have dinner and then night trick or treating man i hope josiah will last through all that lol he LOVES to sleep he takes 3 naps a day and sleeps 12 hrs at night lol i wish i could sleep like that. What is ur son going to be? i agree w the cold part it isnt pleasant but i love the fall weather it gets me sooo excited about the holdays esp this year because i will be clean YAY and feeling great":) i remember lsat thanksgivng i called my dentist on call at thanksgiving because i didnt have pain pills and told him i had a REALLY infected tooth i needed antibiotics and pain pills lol how desperate huh?? are u gonna at lesast hand out candy at home?? i love seeing all the costumes.
hi ricart thanks for the post. Did they jsut make u tired the next day? i do feel like a little less energy well today i did the first night i took it i woke up after sleeping all night and cleaned and re-arranged my whole house lol i felt soooo great from sleeping i literally cleaned all day:) today has been a off day for me i went to church and that was GREAT but when i got home i was not feelign good still cooked dinner tho we had my grandpa over it is good to be sober.. i love it jsut cant wait till i get all the way better.. thanks for the input on the ambian i will be careful i only have 8 left from a script of 10 and wont get more so hopefully another week off this pain pill crap will have me feelign pretty good so i can sleep at night and maybe the RLS will be gone. well gonna go rest now good job to everyone getting clean if u r reading this and need some encouragement keep reading and post if u wan to thanks so much ann for ur continues support i really need it.. i am kinda worried bout u u have been really depressed that getting any better? blessings to all
i only have 10 ambian that i have had actually it was a remainder of a refill i forgot i had from a while ago so i got it filled. i have taken it before but i never took it faithfully every night Lord knows i dont want to get addicted to something else they r 10 mg and i am going to break one in half tongiht instead of a full one. I cant wait till 1 am to take it i have a baby to get up w at 5 am lol i will be way to tired...
i actually have neaurotin but i cant stand the way that stuff makes me feel so i dont take it. i am hoping this rls does not stick around that is what i am worried about that i have the actual disorder now because it is a real thing. I took 2 of my requip tonight just a few min ago they r only .50 mg so by taking 2 i took 1 mg hoping maybe my dose has jsut been to low and it will work better i have taken it in the past and it worked but now this time. I have had different bouts of RLS while withdrwaing before and also when i was pregnant. i also got a ace bandage that is the ONLY home remedy i have not tried is wrapping my leg w it people say it works but i have also tried everythign else people say works and it DOESNT but i am hopefull still..
i am soooo excited about taking josiah trick or treating my husband gets to get off work early sinece he worked so long on sat so we r gonna tek him to my grandpa's around 2:30 then the business's downtown have it from 3-5 then we will go have dinner and then night trick or treating man i hope josiah will last through all that lol he LOVES to sleep he takes 3 naps a day and sleeps 12 hrs at night lol i wish i could sleep like that. What is ur son going to be? i agree w the cold part it isnt pleasant but i love the fall weather it gets me sooo excited about the holdays esp this year because i will be clean YAY and feeling great":) i remember lsat thanksgivng i called my dentist on call at thanksgiving because i didnt have pain pills and told him i had a REALLY infected tooth i needed antibiotics and pain pills lol how desperate huh?? are u gonna at lesast hand out candy at home?? i love seeing all the costumes.
hi ricart thanks for the post. Did they jsut make u tired the next day? i do feel like a little less energy well today i did the first night i took it i woke up after sleeping all night and cleaned and re-arranged my whole house lol i felt soooo great from sleeping i literally cleaned all day:) today has been a off day for me i went to church and that was GREAT but when i got home i was not feelign good still cooked dinner tho we had my grandpa over it is good to be sober.. i love it jsut cant wait till i get all the way better.. thanks for the input on the ambian i will be careful i only have 8 left from a script of 10 and wont get more so hopefully another week off this pain pill crap will have me feelign pretty good so i can sleep at night and maybe the RLS will be gone. well gonna go rest now good job to everyone getting clean if u r reading this and need some encouragement keep reading and post if u wan to thanks so much ann for ur continues support i really need it.. i am kinda worried bout u u have been really depressed that getting any better? blessings to all
Hi - sorry I was missing in action. My sinus infection came back and I spent all day yesterday in bed. Didn't feel well enough to post. Been taking benadryl for the sinus issues and that seems to help. Don't know why I can't get rid of this sinus infection. I took a full course of antibiotics. I wonder if this has anything to do with the WDs or I am just rundown?
SOO glad to hear you slept!!! How many Ambien do you have? It depends how many days you take them whether you will get addicted and not able to sleep. I took them about 3 years ago and they just stopped working after a while. If you are worried about becoming dependent on them to sleep I wouldn't take one every night. Do what ricart suggests, wait until 1am or so and then take one.
I read somewhere that Neurontin is good for RLS. Can you go to another doctor and ask for that? People get RLS for a lot of reasons. They don't need to know it is for opiate WD.
I hope you have fun trick or treating with Josiah. My husband is taking my son which I am so glad about. It will be cold and I do not like cold weather. Never have and never will. Talk to you soon.
SOO glad to hear you slept!!! How many Ambien do you have? It depends how many days you take them whether you will get addicted and not able to sleep. I took them about 3 years ago and they just stopped working after a while. If you are worried about becoming dependent on them to sleep I wouldn't take one every night. Do what ricart suggests, wait until 1am or so and then take one.
I read somewhere that Neurontin is good for RLS. Can you go to another doctor and ask for that? People get RLS for a lot of reasons. They don't need to know it is for opiate WD.
I hope you have fun trick or treating with Josiah. My husband is taking my son which I am so glad about. It will be cold and I do not like cold weather. Never have and never will. Talk to you soon.
Hey,That is great that you are 30 days.It will get alot better soon.I took ambien from day 4 till about day ten.I would wait until I absolutely knew I would not sleep.At like 1am I would take one.I think that They really screwed my days up though.Glad you are doing well.
ANN??? is everything ok? i am hoping ur having some really good days and r busy drop by and post...
well i slept again last night. I am really happy with this i did take a ambian so kinda worried that is the only way i will get sleep and i dont want that. i only had a few pills from a old script but i took one last night and the night before and slept?? will i be able to sleep naturally again? Today is one month for me YAY... i am so excited to go trick or treatimg w our little one tommorrow for his first halloween i hope i have TONS of energy and i dont have to drag myself to walk..
off to church today i am happy about that it is hubbys day to sing in the worship band always love watching him up there praising God:) i am really loving my life and thanking God for each and everyday way more than before. Cant wait till things get back to normal all the way still exp some restless legs not near as bad but they still start at around 7 or 8 i am begginning to think this part is not going to go away??? maybe i have that RLS that people have i sure hope not i will not be ablet o deal w that everyday.
hope everyone has a blessed day today keep looking up and for those jsut starting out keep going it is hard BUT it pays off u will not have to be chained to a pill bottle living ur life around how many pills u have and how u will get more plus the feelings u actually feel again are AMAZING... praying for all on this forum
well i slept again last night. I am really happy with this i did take a ambian so kinda worried that is the only way i will get sleep and i dont want that. i only had a few pills from a old script but i took one last night and the night before and slept?? will i be able to sleep naturally again? Today is one month for me YAY... i am so excited to go trick or treatimg w our little one tommorrow for his first halloween i hope i have TONS of energy and i dont have to drag myself to walk..
off to church today i am happy about that it is hubbys day to sing in the worship band always love watching him up there praising God:) i am really loving my life and thanking God for each and everyday way more than before. Cant wait till things get back to normal all the way still exp some restless legs not near as bad but they still start at around 7 or 8 i am begginning to think this part is not going to go away??? maybe i have that RLS that people have i sure hope not i will not be ablet o deal w that everyday.
hope everyone has a blessed day today keep looking up and for those jsut starting out keep going it is hard BUT it pays off u will not have to be chained to a pill bottle living ur life around how many pills u have and how u will get more plus the feelings u actually feel again are AMAZING... praying for all on this forum
hi gnarly thanks for posting. Yes for sure i believe in aftercare i am going to our church's celebrate recovery it is actually on sat nights so tongiht will be my first night. I did it before though when i was clean went to celebrate recovery i LOVE it... i also have a friend that hold a celebrate recovery on thurs nights at her house from the church and she has a small group so thinking bout joining that one too. I LOVE the support from the church aa/na is NOT for me i tried it once and didnt like it AT ALL... i believe i need God in all this not some "higher power " that could be a chair etc but hey it works for some people. The other day i did have one of those days i swear if i had access i prob would have used VERY SCARY... BUT i prayed through it and i am better i WILL NOT use again I cant for me or for my family nor do i like that lifestyle i am DONE... anyway congrats on 2 yrs that is wonderful... i see u posts here on other peoples threads and help them through i think most people try and consintrate on those that r really wanting to quit but weak and thats ok i have done this before and was fine for over 2 years just had some unfortuanate things come up that required the use fo pain pills and i thought it would be ok so not the casae. Kinda worries me what i will do in the future if i need a surgery or something??? i will cross that cridge when it gets here and i know God will guide me... blessings to u and thanks again for ccommenting
hi kinda been following your story from the side lines I wish I had the typing skills and time to comment on them all but I just dont im happy to see your seeking God threw this I couldn't have done it without him this month I celebrated 2yr clean congrats on breaking free and your clean time sound like you have fought a good fight have you lined up any aftercare your post about using if you had them kinda alarms me a bet not that I havent been there I have but aftercare is critical to long term sobriety just ask anyone on this board with long clean time as addicts we need to change the very way we think to overcome this you will learn that in aftercare please dont try and skip this it no fun doing it once imagine doing it over any ways great job so far I wish you all the best in your recovery good luck and God bless......Gnarly
AHHHHH sooooo happy to report i SLEPT last night:) I feel like i can walk on the clouds... what a RELIEF all my prayers and the people at our church praying God finally allowed me to get some rest i even had a dream. I feel kinda tired still like i want more of that sleep stuff lol anyway hubby is working a 14 hr day today he works at our church and they have a lot going on today so he has to be there all day:( kinda sad about that i am hoping i can get my house all cleaned up nice that would be a nice suprise to him... i really enjoy cleaing and he has ocd about clean stuff lol so it makes him happy he is my number 1 cheereleader here he will cry w me laugh w me praise me for doing something he is just the best....
well i dont wnat to sit too long jsut had to post now that i actualy had something positive to say lol ann i hope u have a good day feel free to vent about something if u need to i feel like u r only helping me and i am not helping u:(
well i dont wnat to sit too long jsut had to post now that i actualy had something positive to say lol ann i hope u have a good day feel free to vent about something if u need to i feel like u r only helping me and i am not helping u:(
:( sad about desperate hopw she is ok... i know it gets rough today was AWFUL... thanks for the nice post i wish there could be something done too i am FRUSTERATED i told my husband it is so sad that i have to dread the night coming i should be looking forward to it instead i fear it w everything in me... i prayed so much last night and today it helped me i got into my Bible tho i didnt feel like doing it i knew it would help. i was down in the dumps all day but when hubby got home we went out to a mexacin restraunt me him and josiah and it was GREAT i came home feeling much better i was thinking today that i was falling into that depression everyone talks about and it scared me and maybe i am down a little but i think most of it is lack of sleep. i feel soooooo tired so hoping i can sleep but not gonna get my hopes up. i am still gonna message u and tell u about what happened w the whole law thing... i am just really tired right now. real chicago pizza sounds AMAZING... i LOVE pizza esp chicago we grew up in il so we got tastes of it here and there. how r uholding up u were feeling a little depressed urself. vent if u have too dont feel like u cant because ur trying to hold me up but i do appreciate u sticking around u r really the only one left that posts to me people come and go so much on here it drives me crazy esp since we put so much of our feelings and life on here u know? anyway i will post tommorrow and message u have a good night
I am so sorry about the night you had. I know how hard it is to go without sleeip. I went 6 days without sleep once and I wanted to kill myself. How are you doing right now? I wish there was something I could do to help you. Can you go to a different doctor and get something for the RLS?
We are having real Chicago pizza for dinner tonight.
We are having real Chicago pizza for dinner tonight.
i will message u a little later and tell u what happened..
i had a ROUGH night last night i am soooooo thankful i didnt have access to pills because i for sure would have caved in and took them i kept telling God i was just going to give up and start using fortuantly i dont have access to them... my restless legs were worse than ever like they were on day 1 i cried ALL night so bad that my eyes r swollen almost shut this AM and they r burning i dont know how i am gonna keep going on no sleep. I didnt take my rewuip last night for the RLS because it was 11 and i didnt have them 30 min after laying down it started i took a melatonin which is wither what made it worse or because i didnt take my rls meds i dont know but either way i told God i would rather be dead than go through this again...
i will write more later my eyes hurt to bad right now
i had a ROUGH night last night i am soooooo thankful i didnt have access to pills because i for sure would have caved in and took them i kept telling God i was just going to give up and start using fortuantly i dont have access to them... my restless legs were worse than ever like they were on day 1 i cried ALL night so bad that my eyes r swollen almost shut this AM and they r burning i dont know how i am gonna keep going on no sleep. I didnt take my rewuip last night for the RLS because it was 11 and i didnt have them 30 min after laying down it started i took a melatonin which is wither what made it worse or because i didnt take my rls meds i dont know but either way i told God i would rather be dead than go through this again...
i will write more later my eyes hurt to bad right now
if you don't mind me asking - how did you get in trouble with the law? I am so sad that happened to you.
I feel bad about your sister. Four children as a single mother is really tough. Do you know how many pills she is taking a day? I guess there is nothing anyone can do until she decides she is ready to quit and admits she has a problem.
My husband is giving me a hard time about not working out. He is paying for my gym membership and he is mad that I haven't going. He doesn't care that it is good for me etc. He just cares that he is paying for it.
I don't really like to cook. I wish I did. Still real depressed. Beginning to feel like it will never go away.
I feel bad about your sister. Four children as a single mother is really tough. Do you know how many pills she is taking a day? I guess there is nothing anyone can do until she decides she is ready to quit and admits she has a problem.
My husband is giving me a hard time about not working out. He is paying for my gym membership and he is mad that I haven't going. He doesn't care that it is good for me etc. He just cares that he is paying for it.
I don't really like to cook. I wish I did. Still real depressed. Beginning to feel like it will never go away.
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