starting over or not with percocet withdraw?

[mlwal]

i did not realize how many percocets that i was taking this month and ended up taking 100 in less than 30 days i realized that i would not have enough for the month a few days ago and started to spare them so i took 2 yesterday and two today and i only have 2 (10/650) and cant get anymore until my appointment on the 21st.  i had no clue that i was going through withdraw until eariler today and thought that i was just getting sick.  i want to quit taking them and need to know if by taking the ones that i did have i prolonged my withraw?

i have felt bad for a couple of days how long will i feel like this and not be albe to sleep i have not slept in over 24 hours?

[mlwal]

Thanks for you story.  I am proud of you too and yes it was the best feeling in the world to just say "NO".  I will stay on the site and maybe I can help someone someday like I was helped.

Thanks Again Everyone

[IwillQuit2]

Way to go mlwal!!!! I'm newer on here and at16, oops now 17 days clean.  I too had to go to
the hospital last night and while runnning iv fluids they wanted to give me Demerol to make me comfortable and I told them no.  Felt great didn't it??? Funny I've tried this before but had the wrong mindset and had no clue what I was in for. I stummbled on this site one day 2 of ct  wds
and omg what a blessing everyone one here has been.   If not for this site I may have relapsed
but all the positive encouragement how could you?!   Well just wanted to say how proud I was of u even though u don't know
much of me. But prayers and hugs are being sent your way.  And again great job(:

[jstntime]

Hey again!!!

Really cool to hear from you.  I'm so happy I caught this post, I wondered what had become of you.  That's awesome news.  You've shown a lot of people here that this can be done.  Please keep giving us updates, we need all the success stories we can get!!!

Congrats, I'm crazy proud of you!!!

bob

[mlwal]

Hey Just wanted to give everyone an update.  I am now 2 months clean from pain pills.  I even got really sick with mono and had to go to the hospital and they wanted to give me Lorcet and I said "NO".   Hell YEAH.  I want to thank everyone one here who helped me and talked to me it really did work.  I am doing so much better and I feel better than I have in a long time.

Thanks

[mlwal]

I will take you up on that deal and we can quit together.  

Looking forward to it

[pattifan]

Hi

I'm sure you already know this, but tapering from benzos is the wrong time to try and quit cigarettes!

About three months after stopping the bezos is about the right time.  When you're ready, give me a shout and I'll give up with you!

Take care

[mlwal]

Thanks again and it is really nice to have both of my children know and be supportive, I also talked to my brother and sister-in-law and they have be great.

I think that all of you are right about the benzos.  The doctor did know I stopped them and he change me from 4 atavin a day to 1 valium but I think that we did it to quick.  So I may need to go see him before the 17th if the shakes dont stop.

Now I need to get off them and these damn cigarettes and I will feel like a new woman and manbe lose 10 more pounds...lol

Thank all you are great

[jstntime]

Hi again,

As Dknd pointed out, stopping benzos ct can be dangerous.  You should really talk to your doctor about doing this safely.  They should be tapered slowly to do this safely.

You have come so far and I am so happy for you.  It must be a huge relief to have your daughters know about your problem.  

You are doing all the right things but please be safe with the benzos!!!!

Keep keeping!!!

bob

[Dknd4v]

the shakes can be from the ativan benzos arevery dangerous to stop on your own on high doses or lengthy use. So just be careful. I am very proud of you tho. Pills are by far i feel the hardest to stay off of and away from because of their ease of acess and legalness (if thats a word lol) to have an obtain them. One again keep up the good work.

[mlwal]

Thanks so much for the support and yes actually both of my daughters (22 at college) and (16 senior highschool) have been told.  They both told me that they knew and were glad that I had stopped.  They both also understood that the doctor was giving them to me the older one was more supportive and still is she is a division 1 college athlete on scholarship and she keeps telling me that I need to exercise, here major is health and PE.  The younger one is pretty good and we have been without a major blowup fight for close to 10 days which is a record so I think that it has helped us both.  I have started my college classes again and I am taking a yoga class and today was my first one so I hope that helps me get into the routine of exercise.  However as far as the shakes I have them more toward the end of the evening, probably starting about 8 or 9 pm as well as in the mornings but not as bad.  I am a little worried that it is from stopping the ataivan 4 times a day.  When I take the valium for sleep i usually take it about 1 hour before bed and then the shakes stop so just not sure.  I know it has only been almosst 2 weeks but all the other symptoms went away so I guess I just want this one to go as well.  I do go back to the doctor on the 17th of Sept, so if they have not stopped by then I will talk to him about it.

But on a good note I feel great and am sleeping about 6 hours a night but still with the valium so I guess that one will be next.  Thanks again for your support.

[jstntime]

Really happy for you,

Thanks for the great update.  As for the shakes, I started getting them directly upon awakening for an hour or so.  It lasted a month or 2 for me.

Do you get them all the time???  I hink you can chalk it up to detox but you should get it checked out if it continues for a while.

Having your daughter's support is going to help you and I commend you for making what must have been a difficult conversation.

Crazy happy for you!!!!!  Keep keeping!!!!!

bob

[mlwal]

Still going stong and I did talk to my daughter and told her the truth and she did say that she knew but is proud of me.....As far as the valium that is next. The the smoking I think that will be the hardest.  I dont want to take anymore pills not even natural but I do take fish oil but working on that as we speak...

My only long term problem is I still get the shakes like in my hands and I was wondering that will ever go away, sometimes people notice it but only close friends that know me does anyone have any suggestions on that.

Thanks

[offitall]

And...I didnt read the rest of the posts (they were hidden). Way to go! Awesome! You are very strong and it is a beautiful life living it unaltered! Very happy for you!!!

[offitall]

Kids are smart...she might know already. Has she ever seen you take them. If so, you might want to tell her (if she is at the point in her life where you think she will understand) - it is a lesson ALL kids today should learn. just a thought....?

[Storme]

So glad you are feeling better but I would probably flush the Valium as well. Have you looked into Valerian Tincture for sleep or SleepMD which are both natural and non habit forming? You can get both at WalMart or any health food store. You have kicked everything else and the Valium is just another opiate you know. Your progress is amazing and you should be so proud of yourself! Sleep will return to you as more and more you get your life back! Hang in there!

[jstntime]

Wow,

What a cool Friday night feel gooder story!!!!  Your update is great news.  Many struggle with lack of energy, the fact yours has returned is amazing.

....and a flusher too????  That was a wise move to get rid of them before they started talking to you.  

Really really happy to see you succeeding and having a plan,
Keep keeping!!!!!

bob

[mlwal]

Thanks so much....I am GREAT i have not had a pill since last saturday and i fell the best that I have in 10 years.....I quit almost everything....percocets GONE!!!!!!! ativan 4 times a day...GONE!!!!!!!  all sleeping pills...GONE.....talked to the doctor he did not want me to detox like that so i just lied to him and told him that i would just cut back he gave me another 100.....i filled the percsription then brought them home and flushed them ALL, he did put me on valium 10 for sleep and i told him that i would do that for 1 month and then they are done weather he wants me to or not.....i have struggled with sleep for over 15 years and have been taking meds for that long so i think that may be a little harder but so far so good only taking 1 valium at night and no more

I have the most energy that I have had in 10 years i am so happy.....my college classes start on monday and i have a new look on life....

I just want to thank everyone on here for the support and i will keep getting back on to stay in touch but I dont even want another percocet ever again in my entire life

[jstntime]

I hope things are still working out for you.  I too had a hard time eating during detox.  I really had to force myself.  It's tough not having any energy because of detox but it's much tougher if you don't eat.

May your suffering end soon.
Let us know how it's going!!!!

bob

[mlwal]

thanks i am still hanging in there i did go to my brother and sister-in-laws house for dinner but really cound not eat much spent about an hour up there they live at the end or our lane so i could walk i was scared to drive i had really not slept more that 4 hours in i think 3 days and that was after i went to a concert and was drunk and did not realize what was going on......i do feel a little better i finally got a little sleep but it was with some help from valium i normally dont take them but i could not take the lack of sleep and my doctor and i have been struggling with that for about 15 years so i guess that i the next thing but i can only do one at a time.....but after talking to my brother and sister-in-law i am really determined to kick the habit and i think that i am going to do it for all the meds that i have been taking for years......switch sleeping pill every 6 months or so cause that dont work and i have had them all ambian, luneta, tradazone and others and then we swith between valium, ataivan and xannax for the anxiaty...but them i find myself not taking them througn the day i take them at bedtime to sleep and kind of alternate between the sleeping pills and the others or even sometime both....but i guess one at time is going to work better for me.....i dont think that i am going to tell my dauhter becaues i dont think that she will understand or forgive me.....i think that we fight alot becasue of me and the addiction to the pills so i think that i can hide the withdraw with the flu sumptoms for a couple more days and she will not be home until tomorrow...i took a valium about 4 pm this afternoon and i just took another one so i am hoping to get another 4 or 5 hours of sleep now so i will not be so wired when she gets home.....

thanks to everyone for the advice i really appreciate it

[jstntime]

Hi again,

Getting bored is your enemy right now.  I understand how tough it is to do ANYTHING but you need to force yourself to get out.  Go for a walk or bikeride or drive.  Go hang out with a friend.  Try and find something that will make you laugh.

You can do this!!!!  Very happy to see you still hanging in there!!!!

bob

[mlwal]

thanks for the encourgement...still hanging in there but no sleep and i catch myself watching the clock...i have been laying on the couch since yesterday and watching tv but now i am really starting to get board

[jstntime]

Hey again,

STAY BUSY!!!!  The best thing you can do now is to distract yourself.  Keep your mind off of things to stop the clock watching.  It WILL get better, trust us on that one.

Watch some funny movies, build a jigsaw puzzle, go to the mall, do SOMETHING to stay busy.  The symptoms WILL begin to ease.  

As for the daughter, that is YOUR call.  Do lots of reading in these posts and older ones to see what others did and how it all worked out for them.  There is a wealth of information in those posts.

Pulling for you to get through this, I know you CAN!!!!!

bob

[LeaAnn807]

Hmmm......ok!  There are common symptoms for WD.  I'm sure you have read them!  Diarrhea, yawning, sneezing, sweating, chills, head and body aches, flu like symptoms, insomnia, weakness, low energy...etc..etc..etc!  When they start to let up, you are coming out of it!  After your last pill, then it is 3 or 4 days.  As far as telling your daughter, that is up to you completely.  You could just tell her you aren't feeling well.  I'm not sure how your relationship is?  

You will feel better in a few days! : )

[mlwal]

hey thanks i appreciate the help...so how do you know when your are almost done withrdaws?  Any sign so i can be hopinbg for something please?

I really dont know when i started my symptoms because i have felt sick for a few days and when i realized what the hell i was doing and would not have enough pill to last to my visit i cut them back and i think that was on friday or maybe thursday i really hope it was thursday.....

i do live with my 16 year old daughter and i dont really want to tell her does anyone have any thought on that subject?  She is at the beach with her friend until tuesday...which now i realize is tomorrow.....and still no sleep

appreciate any help and all the answers you all have started to give me