starting to detox tomorrow

[trevinbl]

I will begin detoxing off heroin tomorrow.I am going to use suboxone.I was in a rehab awhile back where the doctor gave me subs for five days so I will use the same protocol as it worked great before. The thing is to wait till the physical withdrawls kick in and all opiates are out of your body. Last time I waited about three days before I started the subs. First day was 4mg in the am and 4mg in pm. Second day was 8mg then 8mg.third day was 8 and 8.Fourth day was 4 and 4 and fifth day was 2and2.After that I felt pretty good except for chills and a little lethargic but with the rigorous schedule we kept having class,group,and education it made things easier.By the time I left I felt good and had no desire to use but I wish I would have taken their advice as far as relationships go after I got out.I know I am responsible for my actions but when you are with someone who knows how to push your buttons and does just because it is a relapse waiting to happen.Anyway I have gotten rid of that part of the problem and have a good set of tools for this time around now I just need to execute the plan.Wish me luck!

[LADNORTHERN172]

dont let the fact u used stop u from trying again...so what if u let it get the better of u for a while...this is a war not a battle..there are gonna be times it all is simply too much..and the alternative is too bad..we are a tough breed us addicts and we can stand fifty times more punishment than average joe...so when you say things trevinbl...i understand...going as long as you can takes guts...but next time dig deep on your reserves and go a bit longer..most addicts cant go ten minits...so hold your head up ..at least your givin it your best shot..thats all you can do for now..are you planning on maintenance or structured detox? im on subutex for now and that seems to work for me, BUT i hear only bad things about it on here,which is contrarary to my experiences so far...i dont think C/T is the way to go though.. keep posting...

[trevinbl]

Thank you for your comment. This reminds me so much of the friendships I formed while in rehab. I met these people and in a short period formed very tight bonds with them because I realized I am not alone and that other people are going through the same thing and understand me  and that is a good feeling.Another thing I learned is that through helping others one can help themselves and that is also a good feeling.Again thank you for your comments and even though I don't know you I love you too! Also just to give an update I went as long as I could today and unfortunately the monkey got the best of me and I used. I feel really bad immediate guilt but all I can do is keep trying.

[bandjusa]

the withdrawls from heroin are the worst im not even goin to lie . i remember he didnt sleep for 6 days .he was only doin heroin for 6 months but before that he would 80 mg oxys he was up to bout 5-9 a day for bout 9 months before he started heroin an then before the oxys he ate vicodin for bout 2 1/2 yrs bout 10-15 a day .he did the suboxone that works for him hes only been clean for 2 months he likes the suboxone cuz he doesnt withdrawl i know your supposed to take it for 6 months its an opiate blocker .i dont how the taperin down thing works to get off of it since hes only been taken it for 2 months . but i wish you the best of luck a long hard road but you can do it

[LADNORTHERN172]

good luck to you my friend.....i dont know you...but i love you...you can do this!!!!!!!!!!

[dominosarah]

Yes we will always be addicts and it feels so good to have the word "recovering" at the beginning.  WD is always hard but it is something we have to go thru to get to the other side.  We have abused our bodies and it is not very happy with us so it lets us know we havent been very good to it.  Our body is also very forgiving as we are able to heal.  You can do this!!  Dig deep and come out fighting.  Dont be afraid of the wd's.  Its all part of getting better.........sara

[trevinbl]

I will definitely keep posting I am going to need the support I am really scared I know it is going to be hard but I have to give it my all this is my life and I know I am not destined to be on drugs for the rest of my life. I will always be an addict but hope that with the right guidance and support I can be an addict in recovery from here on.

[dominosarah]

That sounds really good!!   Stay positive like you are and keep posting.......sara

[trevinbl]

I know that the twelve steps and meetings work cause I have worked the program.I am planning to do 90 meetings in 90 days.

[trevinbl]

How long have you been on methadone,and what mil. Did you taper to from? Thanks for your comment!

[dominosarah]

Sounds like you have a plan to detox.  What about aftercare?  That is very important to our recovery........sara

[trevinbl]

Thank you for your comment. I had a period of five years sober before I relapsed in 08 so I know it can be done.I am just sick and tired of being sick and tired.I have spent so much time energy and money on this I am emotionally and physically spent.The years that I was sober were the best. I got to travel to Cancun and Disney world Florida on vac. And lived in a nice place had nice cars and possessions.I pretty much lost everything and I feel that life is to short to waste it. I am ready to reclaim my life. I know that if I try half as much as I tried to get high everyday I will succeed.I know one thing is for sure I will not die withdrawling from this.I know I might feel like it but I won't die and once I get sober things will be much better.Thanks for your comments again.If I may ask how long has your boyfriend been sober? And how did he get there?

[Silvereyes]

I don't know anything about suboxone, I was a herion addict too, I went with methadone and wish I had got off of it a long time ago, I am tapering off right now. It sounds like you have a plan and that it worked before so good luck with that and stay clean!!

[bandjusa]

i wish you the best of luck . heroin ruined my boyfriends life we are now tryin to put the pieces back together you can do it just stay focused.