suboxone addiction HELP

[crissy808]

I've always had a problem with pills. I remember the first time I took a vicodin it made me feel like there wasn't a care in the world. I never really had an addiction to pain pills though until I started dating a guy who was addicted to oxycontin. I became totally hooked, starting with 40 mg a day, then progressed to 160 mg+ daily over a year and a half period. OC made me feel like I was on top of the world. When I didn't have my fix I felt like hiding and curling up in a ball crying all day.  I went through hell. A friend of mine told me about suboxone, and I got my hands on some...not knowing the whole story about it. To make a long story short, I've been addicted to subutex/suboxone for 8 months (at 16 mg) now. I have a stressful job at a gourmet restaurant that requires me to be on my A game at all times, not to mention to be able to put on a happy face and be bubbly around high maintenence people. I started to really feel some side effects...I constantly have this fog in my brain, it makes it really hard to concentrate, I feel lethargic, but most of all have lost my zest for life at only 26 years old. I'm so depressed. I want more than anything to get completely clean and get my life back. My doc that was prescribing me the suboxone relocated and won't return my calls. I tried to quit cold turkey from 16 mg and by the 4th day i wanted to kill myself the withdrawls were so bad. My primary doc prescribed me vicodin and xanex to help me get through it. I know that sounds crazy since I'm just going in circles from one opiate to the next, but when I started suboxone, i had no idea that it would addicting or have withdrawls that last longer than oxy. I feel like i've been tricked. Is there anyone out there who's taken vicodin to get off subutex/suboxone? I'm well aware that I'm facing vicodin addiction/withdrawl in doing so, but i know that i'm ready to get clean. The plan is to taper down from the vicodin and face the 5-7 day withdrawls. Anything but the 2-4 week suboxone wd. That was torture!!! Please Help!

[HoldenCaulflower]

I don't know but it just sounds crazy for a doctor to prescribe hydros for withdrawals, but I'm from Indiana so that stuff doesn't happen here, you can't even get benzos unless you just happen to find a somewhat shady doctor. Although I would rather be coming off hydros than methadone or subs. So, if you really wanna quit I suppose you could be weened off with them. I don't know I'm torn, but good luck.

[cougar68]

     Sorry a half pill every 4  days

[cougar68]

     I myself tapered down half mg every 4 days until it was every 12 hrs.

[crissy808]

well thank you for your story and trying to help, i really appreciate it!

[cougar68]

     I really didn't have much with withdrawals only noooooooo sleep on sbx .  Oxycodone I could get a few hrs just to feel better and heal. I also used withdrawal Supplement and Wellbutrin and my doc. also gave me Lorazapam 3xday I only take when necssary. I was on xanax and it was to strong and I did not want to get addicted to that. Lorazapam is weaker. I really am trying to watch what I say I posted days ago for first time and I was bashed down for answer a question. I finally just came back on yesterday, but I will try and answer the best I can.

[crissy808]

so you took 5mg oxycodone to help your wd's? my doctor only prescribed me 5mg vicodin :( my tolerence is so damn high from opiates so vicodin may not help aid wd's as much as oxycodone, but you said it helped you??? did it pretty much take your wd's away???

[cougar68]

     Been there done that! Was on Suboxone for 10 months. Little did I know how addictive it was too? I have struggled since June to get off Sbx and it was not fun at all. Considering I was at 8 mg and when I was on pills before that I was only taking about 15-30 mg and 4 mg of suboxone is good enough for 80 mg. I really did not have problems tapering off of sbx till 2 mg and then no sleep and RLS at night. I to had to go back to 5 mg Oxycodone and find where I was at and tapered. I'am now at day 26 only cheated once at 10 dys just to sleep and RLS.  That was a big mistake! The guilt and almost going thru withdrawals all over again  and it was only 4 and half mg. But now I feel good accept sleep and my legs hurt at nite, but a electric heating pad takes care of that until I wake up and then I'am up because I can't lay there without hurting, but it is definetly better than where I was before. Lif e is pretty good. I found when I was on sbx it felt like I had a monkey on my back too. On to many mg. Iwas able to stop oxycodone when I was at 5 mg every 12 hrs and woke up one morning and I was done.  Wish u well. Hope if helps u?