the severity of my addiction

[krissi31]

So, I have always loved vicodin.  However I just recently met a friend who has a friend...  If ya know what I mean.  So I started buying it.  I have been taking it since October.  Not so much in the beginning, but it has gotten worse.  I have been taking more and more and I buy more when I feel like I am running out.  I know that there is a part of me that is addicted, I just don't know how badly. If I stop taking them will I have really bad wds?  I guess I just really don't understand how long it takes to become physically addicted.  i really want someone to tell me that three months isn't that bad and that wds will be minimal at best, is that possible or am I fooling myself?  I need feed back please.  I have so many questions.  I thanks guys!

[struggling_college_student]

Krissi please quit now......I know all these posts above have said that already but you must realize how this will progress.  I was Rx'ed vics over a year ago, I had always used them here and there when they were accessible but now with the Rx I was able to step up my dose and get that high.  Pretty soon I needed more and more to feel that high again and I also noticed my original pain was even greater even though I was taking twice as many vics.  By this time I was taking maybe 10-12 5/500 a day.  My Rx was running out before I could refill so I started hunting the streets.  I found a dealer and started purchasing 10/325 norcos for 3 dollars a pill.  Well the same thing happened with those.....started needing more and more to feel that high.  At my worst I was taking 10-12 a day for about 8 months.  Thats almost a thousand dollars a month, I blew threw my savings and sacrificed going out with friends, food, clothes, etc to save money for pills.  The pills consumed my world.  Waking up, first thought would be do I have norcos for today?  If I did I was good, If I was low it was time to hit the dealer or try and find money first.  Finally I had had enough!!  I am now 17 days clean and while the first week sucked I am now feeling alive and normal and love every second of it!

Well that was long but what I am trying to say is that this addiction is progressive, looking back I didnt even really realize I had gotten up to that amount of pills!  Please take control before it is too late!!  This site rules and will help you so much.  I was quite addicted to this site during hell week!!! Keep posting ok?

Jeff

[krissi31]

thanks to all of you for your awesome feedback...  More please.  I am so hungry for your advice and experience...  I keep logging back on to see if anyone has posted.  I am stopping tomorrow.  I almost bought 10 today, but I changed my mind.  I just took my last 2 and a half, so then I am done.  I have to be!!!!!! I am kinda proud of myself because they are readily available and I havent gotten any in a week and a half.  I think I might have to tell my friend to cut me off.  What if I dont change my mind next time?  Next time I will not have a couple waiting for me at home...  Ya know what I mean.  I am getting some flexiril tomorrow to hel with the wd's ( which I hope I wont even need it )   anyone ever had that??

[worried878]

3 months is a fantastic time to quit!  like flmagi said..dont wait until this is a major ordeal..u didnt state ur dose..i was at 80-100 mgs a day and at 3-4 years of using i quit the hydros...felt bad for less than a week physically..mentally was a bit tougher..but i had used long enuf to make it a habit..at 3 months it shouldnt be such a huge routine perhaps and it will disappear from ur life without to much grief...let it go...it is time..read the health pages..lots of good info there..and keep posting

[enemy48]

I make friends w/someone here about 8 months ago.  She had been taking 4 vics daily for only six months.  

After reading and learning that most of us here has had our addictions for several years made her realize that she's better off stopping now.

Withdrawals weren''t a walk in the park for her, but she didn't suffer the PAWS that most of us do....Like me w/a 6 year addiction.  That's a hugh chunck of my life having to learn to live again.

I advise that you read a lot here and educate yourself.  

If the 31 is your age, then be grateful that it's not 51 and 20 years later you're still using.

Best Wishes.

[tim772]

Regardless of how bad w/d s will be. The fact is that if you don't stop now you will be pulled into hell very soon if you don't stop now.,  3-5 days is as long as it will last anyway. Do it now and save yourself time, money,sanity, family and friends. Don't kid yourself, if you are buying on the streets, then you are an addict like the rest of us. End it early.
Good Luck

[merrymaria]

please stop now.....you are in the early stages of addiction and wds will be minimal for you...but if you continue to use wds will be horrible...i was addicted for almost 4 years taking much more than you and i made it happen...i m done with it.  the longer you abuse the worse it will be and 3 months is not bad at all.  you can do it and please do or it will get very hard to quit.  good luck and stay on this forum and keep posting...maria

[flmagi]

You don't say how many you take on a daily basis. But here's a guesstimate...At 3 months use, you may experience some anxiety, minor sleeplessness, extreme fatigue and diarrhea for about 2-4 days. This is just an estimate. The withdrawal symptoms will probably be very mild, to where it may not interfere with working etc.
Get off this stuff now. And when/if you do get off it now, don't fool yourself into thinking that 2 months from now you can do a few Vics with no problem, because that's how you'll be pulled into full blown addiction. That's how a lot of us got where we are today....just a few here and there...just a few.  And every time you have a bout with these little demons, your withdrawals from them will intensify.
You are in the early stages of addiction...you like them and you have been doing them steady for 3 months. Get out NOW, while you can get out somewhat easy.
Recognize that this is a chance of saving your life, and I'm not being overly dramatic.  If you don't stop now, in a year or two, you'll be saying "OMG, What have I done to my life?".
The best advice you will ever receive in your life is , GET OUT NOW!!!!!
Good luck to you and keep posting.

[krissi31]

I know!  I really want to    I was just worried about how bad it will be.  What do you mean by minor.  Do you have any idea how long, or what I am up against?  I really sense your urgency and I promise that I am going to stop.  I just really need advice and reassurance...  I dunno if that makes sense.  The money thing ...  you are dead on with that one...  I have already spent money I don't have.  
So I need some good solid answers!  Thank you so much for your time.  Please tell me, how bad do you think it's gonna be for me?  You don't think that three months is that bad? I'm so scared and confused...  and grateful that I found this forum!!!!
I realized I am in over my head, and I want to stop while I can!

[allaboutmary]

Your withdrawals should be minor after taking for only 3 months. Get off them NOW !  Your addiction and the withdrawals will only get worse.  You are really playing with fire if you continue, you'll start spending money you don't have etc...   PLEASE PLEASE DO THIS NOW !