there is soo much to tell. i suffer from major depression, anxiety, an addiction to tylenol 1's, and very low self worth. i work at a school as a teachers aide. i have been here for 25 years. my job is my high point of my day. i absolutely love the children. at 15 i developed annorexia and went untreated for about 13 years. during that time my father was diagnosed with a terminal heart problem. however with gods help he is doing ok today. he is still ill but ok. my mom suffered from major depression and much more.she died when i was 34. at my job i was fired for innocent absentism.[ being ill beyond your controll]. with my job association we worked to get my job back. it took 1 year and i went through hell. i had a stupid lawyer and signed a contract that basically said: for the first two years i will follow all school division rules and if for any reason, ie.15 min late i could be fired, after that i am to be avilable for drug and alchol testing at any time, if i am away ,for any reason ie. sick berevment , doctors' for 9 dayy in a rolling school year, they can fire me. stresssssssss!!!!!!!!!! i am affraid to go to the doctor for being found out that there is something wrong with me and i have to be away from school, i could get fired. my husband isa bit mentally abusive. he also suffers from depression, alcholism, low self esteem. we are both on medications to help. i have been on mine since i was about 29. i am now 45.[ the age when my dad had his first set of heart attacks.] my aunt died 3 weeks ago and her sister has maybe 1 to 2 months to live. they are my fathers sisters. my dad is my best friend. i love him soo much........i feel overwhelmed, however i do have a huge belief in my savior jeasus.. he does help but now i feel soo low. help me i dont have anyone to talk to. i feel drained