trying to excape from heroine, crack and meth. i cant handle the withdrawls

[090380]

i was doing heroine for 3 years and stoped and switched to pills, any pills, about 30 a day in a sometiems bad combos. a few months of  that and i tried crack end never stoped for 5 months untill i started doing heroine again to come down, the heroine lasted a weekd and i was doing both heroine and crack for about 8 months. i was working on the streets and too many guns to my head and when i was shot at i had a break down and was scared to go back to my hook.

i was doing good the withdrawls lsasted about 2 weeks and i was perfectly fine for another 2 weeks after that.
suddenly the withdrawls came back stronger than ever.
i was overcome with emotion and experimented with meth. i was on a nonstop binge for about 2 months.

i hate this battle it is ruining my life.
the withdrawls are both physically and mentally drainig and i have lost all my strenght to fight

i am only 19 years odl and i want to be happy like normal 19 year olds.

i cant handdle this life any more.

any tips on how to handle the withdrawls?

[090380]

thank you so much,

i will keep posting.
for the first time in my life i am in a dream come true relationship with a truly wonderful man who is giving me so much strenght and he is teaching me and helping me learn to live and think in a positive way
and i really appreciate the support from thoes who have been through it and have won the fight.
your stories give me hope

god bless

[leeisgettingclean]

whatever you do keep posting here. I will be praying for you. Nothing changes on its own, you are incontroll of your next steps, make them count. Once you start getting clean you be surprised at all the help out there for someone in your shoes.

[090380]

thatnk you so much for your support.

i am currently a menber of na/aa, havnt been in a few weeks but i think ill stop by tomarrow and say hi to a few old friends :)

[j34]

Wow I am feeling for you .I too was on the streets ,not a nice place to be .I was a down and out back alley drug addict,I thought that there was no hope for me.I finally had enough when the pain I was living in become more pain than facing anything I surrendered that my life was unmanageable and I defiantly was an addict I picked up the phone and called a recovery house and they accepted me. It was VERY had to withdrawal and live a new life,but I seen something and it was people living in recovery,I got hooked in with Na and Aa,started taking there suggestions and I wish I could say got clean right then and there but for another 2 yrs in and out of the programs then finally I got a yr sober.what a miracle,then I got loaded a month after thinking I could use again and I didn't have to "DO" the suggestions anymore and thank god I only went out for one day cause I picked up the phone and called my supports,they were here for me and I am clean and serene once again ,I can tell you from experience it is not the dope that was the problem it was me I did not knwo how to live life on it s own terms through hard work and willingness TODAY I am clean ,just for today is all I have to get through,YOU can do this YOU are worthy of a clean life,YOU deserve to have peace and serenity and it is possible reach out to others who have found a new way to live and I can tell you I wouldn't trade my worst day sober for my best day loaded,I love living life sober and clean. I wish you well and today can be the first day of the rest of your life.Blessings and prayer to you ,j

[leeisgettingclean]

Yeah I have to agree about in-house rehab, thats what i had to do to kick a nasty meth habit 5 years ago

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

Do you have insurance? If so, I have to recommend in-patient treatment. Especially for the crack addition.

As you know, there is no physical withdrawal from crack but the mental withdrawal is one of the worst. Unless you receive intense counseling and re-train your brain you will not have the tools to get through this. Look at how you are relapsing. That is very scary and very sad.

I have a hard time believing that the withdrawal symptoms came back after two weeks and tend to think it is, as I said, the mental part of this disease kicking your butt.

I hope you get the help you need. You are young and have the opportunity to live your life without the use of drugs.