where to go from here

[Dread_Mafia209]

well lets see, since i was a freshman in high school i always saw my brother taking pain pills, he never really tried to hide it from me, cause i smoked weed so we watched each others back,and hes five years older than me, then one day i walk in my room and hes crushing up a pill and takes out a straw and snorts half, and asks if i wanna try the other half i did it, and then it went all downhill from there.then i started to find norcos on my own, then after two years i found my friend that sold norcos and roxi 30mgs and i started smoking them, soon i was smoking 6 a day plus crushing norcos in between. but i stopped smoking the blues, because my friend that sold them got arrested for possession of pills, coke,weed and loaded guns and more at his house. so now im only doing norco's and 750s occaisionly. so i dont know if quiting cold turkey would be better or tappering down to 5s? and i want to quit because im about to graduate high school and turned 18 about 4 months the risk now just is not worth it. just thinking what would be best.

[VICourageous]

ALRIGHT that letter was hot, lookes like your on the roll to study the "Disease of Addiction" We wrote some poems when I was around alot of addicts.
vickie

[tryinsohardtokickit]

ne that has gone through it.

A Letter From Your Disease

© SieraHello fellow addicts I am your disease,I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease,I will always be here no matter where you go,I am smarter than you and I am in control,Family, friends, and loved ones they won't matter anymore,I'll take everything you got and still want something moreI was there for you in the good times but mostly in the bad,I've made you feel so happy but in the end you was always sadYou will lie to everyone and say that I ain't real,but if that's the case why can't you put down that pillI come in many forms, and shapes, and sizeThen following comes denial, deceit, and liesI will turn you from everyone that tries to take you from meTogether we will spend all eternityI'll embrace you in my arms and I'll never set you free,Spend our life together won't that make you happy,Don't let those people tell you what I am all about,Cause then you'll find a way; a way to kick me outWell here I go now I'll just be on my waybut not for to much longer cause I still have much to saySo when you think I'm gone and you can finally be at ease,Just remember this I will always be your disease.Source: A Letter From Your Disease, Addiction Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/a-letter-from-your-disease#ixzz2LpyvqMiL www.FamilyFriendPoems.com 

[toothfairie]

just wanted to lend my support.....if you decide to go CT then we can help you with WDs...either way we can help....have you thought about going to your parents for help??  and you need to tell your brother you want to quit....and hopefully he will follow you....good luck and just know you are NOT alone....keep posting for support and we will help you get thru it.

[tryinsohardtokickit]

Man your story really gave me chills. I am struggling myself with an Oxy addiction. I have two boys 5 years apart. They say kids are so many more times likely to try drugs if there parents struggle with them. I hope to god they dont try drugs ever and steer clear bc it is a horrible thing. The fact that your so young and want to get clean is awesome. You have a good head on your shoulders and you can do this!!! Good Luck on your road to getting clean.

[overopiates]

STOP all ways of taking them that r not oral.thats the1st step.i was taking10-15tab10's a day I quit c/t.day4I felt a lot better.STOP THOAE STUPID OC's.Just digging deeper.1st stop.that NOW.I would suggest not quit all the norco yet give the oc's a few days to get  outta ur symptom.Stock up on NAME brand immodium(u will need it,take.double or.more recommended.dose when the w/d from norco kicks in cause.the name brand helps with more than just tummy issues.Get thomas recipe.supplies.I would say If I were u.Young and healthy.Wait a few days til oc out of ur system start the amino acid protocal on the thomas recipe asap.Get ur supplies and n a few days u say the flu cold turkey.U will feel physically a lot better n3-4days kiddo.More important aftercare.u need that to stay away from these for good.

[nbhope]

I did a fast Tapper and jumped cause I felt like crap any way... But because of your age I think you should Tapper down if you have the will power. If not the I would go with CT... its a tought road hut you can do it!! the support here is great... This is forum is what helped me get to where I am today. :)

[Dread_Mafia209]

oh and been on opiates for about 4 years.

[Dread_Mafia209]

well at the worst time about 1 months ago, i was doing 5 roxi's, and maybe 10 yellows(norco's) a day.  but now since my blue connections locked up. im doing maybe 12-15 a day. Sometimes less, sometimes more. and the last couple days  ive been smoking oc 40s (oxycotin) cause my brothers been finding them. which i know i need to stop.

[overopiates]

U ARE MAKING THE BEST DECISION OF YOUR LIFE.As a kid(I mean that n the best way possible)u r gonna b out of high school,18(legal adult and so smart to make this decision.How many r u taking,how often?Do u have3-4days to lay around?Say u have the flu?I will say u r ao young.U got caught up but making the smartest decision and one I wish I had the smarts to make in high school.Be thrilled ur not on those roxis too.these7.5 will b a walk n the park as far as physical w/d.I always wonder though when people snort the norco/lortabs cause thats like a pound of buffer.1st thing STOP putting em up ur nose.Ur not getting anymore of a buzz that way I PROMISE THAT JUST SCREWING UP UR NOSE!!I think cold turkey would be the way to go.Let us know how much,how often etc.That way we can give u the best advice possible fir YOUR situation.Also how long have u been on opiates?U need to look into aftercare(NA,therapy something like that)na is anonymous and no matter how much u wanna b done they physical w/d is the easy part.Like all of us these pills have become routine,u WILL need outside support from people who understand.WELCOME.KEEP POSTING.PROUD OF U.

[VICourageous]

Hi you came to a good post. Just keep checking back and they will flow in. Do Not Give Up.....I have read all kinds of people coming here and getting clean and staying that way. The experinces here are a blessing to us all. They can help you taper and help with things we used natual to help the w/ds Most will say to talk to a DR. My experience is yes do a taper. I was on methedone dor 12 yrs and oxy/hydro before that I if I had to do it over I would of took the advise of these people. It can be done I am 154 days clean and doing OK. The disease of addiction is powerful and out of control there is alot of info on this out there check it out it helped me plus the support to stay clean...
God Bless you are taking the first step...
vickie idaho