whos out there w/ding with me?

[beatbutnotbroken]

8 days clean off of methadone 105mg tapered down to 45mg...went thru the first 5days in a detox.(thats all they could hold me for) last 2 days they gave me 4 doses of subutex 4mg 4mg 2mg 2mg then said ur good to go RIIIGGHHT. the first day out i felt ok then the next morning I felt pretty good, and then it crept up on me like a assassin. first the anxiety and heart pounding then the aches of bones and joints. there was a point it was so bad i forced myself to sit still and accept the pain just kinda welcomed it in my body then my feet kinda just went numb with a vibrating sensation. lasted about 15mins then had to get up and walk around. and oh my the head games are worse than i ever thought its like my brain is so fing confused and i have no control over it, i get really angry sometimes like i wish this disease could manifest itself in a physical form so i can beat the **** out of it. but all in all im doing ok 8days in and running the road of recovery never to look back at the drugs chasing me. MH and the people here have givin me so much support and kindness it has really helped me a lot so i just wanted to try and give some back. keep posting for support. together we can beat this, KEEPING THE FAITH.......

[beatbutnotbroken]

Thank you....=)

[freedomahead]

So true..... and remember this                                       Romans 8:18   I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us,
Galatians 5:1.    
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free, stand firm, then, do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery

Galatians 5:15
live by the Spirit and ou will not gratify the desires of your sinful nature.For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit and the spirit contrary to the sinful nature.They are in conflict with each other......( continue reading the book of Galatians for yourself ) very powerful:)

Gods word is mighty to tear down strongholds.. keep the faith brother. Dig deep

[EvolverU]

YES! -- Bravo to you on your 1st Month! Long may you run Clean, Clear & Contented. You're on your way & what a brilliant beginning you've made. Proud of you :)

[beatbutnotbroken]

And ty 30 days clean I feel proud as I should be except in my moment of a small relapse that was a lesson learned. I am greatful to be here and blessed to know the difference.

[beatbutnotbroken]

God my higher power thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven....he is revealing his love to me in my many blessings that I did not see at the time of my darkness. We find ourselves without his love because he gave us free will...to love or not to love..all god asks us to do is love one another as he loved us...do we do this now in thiis world of darkness that we have created....in the material things we precious most...to have money most people think that is happiness...I see happiness in my family in my brothers and sisters who have very little but fill themselves with joy just by helping others just by reaching out to them...imagine a world where money does not rule but we all help one another for a common goal or belief in something greater than ourselves...it would be heaven...crush my pride he has done I am blessed to have my eyes and heart open and see what true love is...now I only have to keep my faith that we all can recognise this and the rest will be revealed in time. God my higher power revealed this to me in the love of my children and wife, and myself...even in my darkest hrs he has always been there for me I just didnt recognize this but he was there...I am changing and I feel god has a greater purpose for me and in time I will findn myself happy and humble....this world is in spiritual chaos but u dont have to be in chaos with it u just need to surrender and let love guide u...

[Jinx_777]

so proud of you Josh and you are at day 30 not day 1.  you are doing an amazing job.  you slipped with weed.  not great, but certainly not methodone or any other opiate.  you immediately realized what you were doing and stopped.  it doesn't take away with all you have done.