woo hoo....i am clean all day!!!!

[unheard70]

today i ignored him...i played real sick like i had a sore throat and hid a heating pad under my pillow and when i heard him coming i would heat up my forehead.....i took some nyquil and slept all day!!!!! i didn't do any blow!!!!!! i even told him that i can't believe he was offering it knowing how sick i was!!!!hahaha....and i came up with a plan...but it really isn't that good...i been thinking about saving up all the blow he leaves me and selling it to get cash to haul ***....but i don't know anyone and it is not worth the risk of jail.........but hey....at least i'm on the right track huh?.....I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

[faith2]

You took that as discouraging???????  You have more stories than Walt Disney.  Go to a meeting.   See ya

[hillary5]

hey chick!!! good for you!! i'm glad you made it through another day ... you're right, baby steps .. one day leads to 2 and 3 and so on ... you have to do what is right for you in the situation you are in ... are you going to be safe? ... how is your son thru all of this?  good, i hope .. i'll be on tomorrow again ... haven't felt good all weekend .. laid down at 2 today to take a little nap - got up at 8!!! some nap! .. anyways, i wish you all the luck in the world .. i will talk at you tomorrow....have a good nite!!! peace!!

[LIZZIE LOU]

i have been out of town for a few days and have been catching up on what is going on...and have read most of your posts.   i'm so sorry that you are in the situation that you are...making it even harder to do what your heart is leading you to do.  you are in my prayers sweetie.

i'm am so proud that you have found strength the last couple of days...and i feel sure that with more clean time...you will not be seeing your home situation through blurred eyes.  cleaning your body of toxins will in time clear your mind...allowing you to take control of your life.   it won't be easy...but it definitely something that you can accomplish.

i am sure that you have been told that getting clean is the easy part...but staying clean is where the real work comes in.  having a son that is a recovering crack addict, i know first hand exactly how true this statement is.  i witnessed relapse after relapse...even though he wanted to be clean.  the drug was more powerful than his will.

you have been given some wonderful advice ...and it is your decision on what path to take from here.  i know you have some concerns about what you can and cannot do...but i hope as you become stronger that you will put your sobriety first...and find that everything else with follow suit.

stay strong sweetie...you've got a long road to trodd...but the end result is so worth the trip.

big hugs sent your way,
kim  

[kyjobr]

are you being careful about your computer?  You said your husband was similiar to a Tony Soprano.  Isn't he worried about you being on the PC?  He probably checks to see what you've been doing and who you've been talking to.  

[sk2000]

ROCK ON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   unheard

[unheard70]

gee....thanks for the support........you are the only one that seems to be saying that  even 1 or 2 days isn't good enough? i believe that everyone in recovery and that is trying also had a first and second day that leads to a third, fourth, fifth.....weeks...months...years....too bad for you, but i will not permit you from discouraging me..................I will take this a my first confrontation with being knocked down, and guess what..........I win because I can see through your words...........I have faith in myself.......................and anyways if this was some sort of a first kinda trick or test or something......maybe you were trying to see how easily i would give up because i am only in the very beginning of baby steps.....i'm not falling for it..........still doing good still staying strong.......
peace.......

[faith2]

As they say in N/A, 90 meetings in 90 days.  try it, you may have the courage to stay clean. Being by yourself you are in bad company and left to our own devices, well...................only a matter of time.   you're putting band-aids on.  sorry but being in recovery means no sugar coating.  we take advantage of things like that.  WE ARE ADDICTS

[unheard70]

still sick haha......2 days now........but i did have to have a couple of drinks but i don't mind...it was worth  it...............sorry if i get a little ignorant.....i'm sure you all understand how bitchy someone can get.....thank you....and i.m sorry....but, hey if that is what it takes to keep me clean so far so good please don't get pissed at anything i say......god bless you all and i am finnally proud enough to say ....please bless me too god.....peace...

[hillary5]

hey girl! you sound good today!!! that is awesome! ... can you just flush it w/out him knowing? i know the money does sound tempting doesn't it?  just be careful whatever you do ... let me know how your doing tonite and tomorrow .. thanks for the PM too ... anything that i can help you with, let me know .. even if it's just to talk .. i can even give ya my email add....peace out!!!! have a good day!!!!

[jenny8575309]

I'm proud of you, you gotta have one day before you can have two.  Some 'colds' last a long time, I think you could use this excuse everyday for 2 or 3 weeks if you wanted.  Or.......... what would happen if you just told him you wanna quit?  If you just told him, "I don't want to do this **** anymore, don't give me any more no matter how much I beg"  I did that to my bf w/ vicodin..  What about your son, does he know?  I confide in my son, right or wrong, I'm hoping that he sees what i went through, and chooses not to do drugs.  My son is 12

[Carrie76]

Great job!! You do sound very upbeat and that will help you in your journey. Im soo glad that you were able to not take any:) I agree though, about selling it, I wouldnt, cause that could just bring more problems for you in the future or land you in jail:) We could figure up something else for you to get your stuff hauled and moved out.  Not sure how, but I will be thinking about it today:)

[faith2]

isn't today the 27th???

[keywhite]

Good for you....and you are right don't go there(selling can lead to jailtime).  You sound up and thats important.  Best wishes to ya....

[bettie1976]

dont save the blow. it might prove to be too tempting. and I definitely wouldnt sell it. You really dont wanna be in jail with paris hilton and lindsey lohan. Oh wait, they got out cuz they have money. YOU DONT. Good job today! That was some creative thinkin with the heating pad! wish i woulda thot of that when I was a kid and didnt wanna go to school...............