Thank you. Can u tell me once I wean down and hopefully stop without the use of suboxone , will I still have WD symptoms?
It is difficult to answer your question, since I don't know anything about your motivation level, your history of dealing with challenges, and whether you have an 'addictive personality'-- i.e. your tendency to get attached to behaviors in order to change your emotions. Some people can control their use of pain medications, and would be able to taper to a lower dose. Most of the people I know through my practice would not be able to do so-- but by the nature of my practice, those are the people I tend to see.
The problem you face is that during the tapering process, you will be in a state of 'hyper-algesia'-- you will be more sensitive to pain. I would expect the pain to be the worst around the day that you take a step lower, and then level off after being at the same dose for a week or so. It is difficult to go hour after hour, day after day, always saying 'no' to the desire to take another pill. You are stressing that you need to find your own strength, but that is asking for an awful lot of strength-- an amount that I was never able to find, when I searched for it. My recommendation is 'recovery-based', but not necessarily religious-- in my experience people do best with controlling addictive behaviors when they realize that they do NOT have any power over the substance or behavior-- and THAT is the reason they must avoid it. If I believe I can control something, I have no reason to stop it!
The general philosophy behind 'powerlessness' is that 'since I cannot control my use of this substance, I must do everything in my power to fear it and avoid it-- or it will kill me.' That is MY favored approach. But even that approach, frankly, does not make your challenge easy.