I am so sorry that I did not see your question before, it some how slipped through the cracks. I see some of the members answered you and some of the advise is quite good. You do seem to have an underlying depression, but who would blame you? It seems like you are in an abusive situation in a relationship where you can not trust your husband enough to confide your problems to him. If this is truly the case, you may need to reexamine your relationship. As to the quitting the opiates, I will give you my usual advice:
There is really no easy way of detoxing from home. I have dealt with hundreds of addicts who have all told me horror stories of doing it by themselves. I would only guess that if are successful in doing it at home you don't end up in my clinic. Just in case you are curious, it takes us three to four days to detox a patient and get him/her back home drug free and feeling well on Naltrexone therapy (no opiates).
At home, the basic technique is to space out the pills you take on a consistent manner until you take only one at night, then half at night and then none. See if your doctor can write you a prescription for some Requip for restlessness, Neurontin is a great help for anxiety and malaise, some Flexeril or Soma for a few weeks for muscle spasms and maybe some Seroquel low dose for sleep. Clonidine regulates blood pressure, creepy-crawly feeling and will make withdrawals easier. Valerian and Magnesium is sometimes helpful remedies over the counter for mild sedation, sleep and muscle relaxation.
But, seriously, you must be completely committed to the goal of quitting. I have written a blog that has rather detailed information about options for detox. If you click on my name and then click on blogs you will see one under that heading. Take a minute to read it. I hope you will find it helpful.
The main thing of course is the decision that you make and making it a priority in your life, because that will determine what your life will actually be and mean in the end. I don't want to sound preachy but it is not a decision you make one day, it is a decision you will make every day for the rest of your life. Good luck to you and take a look at my blogs and my clinic website for even more info on narcotic detox www.mdsdrugdetox.com
try going to narcotics annonymous or alcoholics annonymous meetings they are listed on websites and local papers.
I had problem with pain meds, I cut down gradually, till got down to 1, then half, then quarter, then jumped off. but you will have w/ds. It would be best if you found some support, confide in someone you trust.
Addiction is one of the serious issue which should not hide. If you have a problem of addiction you should concern your doctor and talk with them about your other health problems also. Hope you will definitely get a relief.
Get the flu... You have to. Will he beat you for that? Listen you must taper very slowly if you can. But Im not goi g to lie... It takes a steel like will power. Complete lack of motivation to do like the simplest things like taking care of kids ,making dinner let alone work like a dog will be your biggest problems.
Sounds like you hAve some underlying depression from your situation... An antidepressant might help for energy and mood while you are withdrawling. Taper SLOWLY! Good luck . Get off the **** then leave his sorry @ss!