Is this withdrawal?

[Tiredandconfusedinfl]

Hi there. I'm a 28 yr old female and have a had, what I would consider, a not too bad addiction to pain killers for the past year and a half. I would take whatever I could get and just use recreationally. Lortabs, Percocet, Roxycodone. For the past 4 months though it turned pretty bad for me. I was spending $100,s a month on Roxy's and Percs. I only weigh 100 pounds on a good day so I could never take more than 50 mg of either one in a day without being completely messed up. But that turned into an almost everyday event. 15 days ago I decided to quit cold turkey. I knew I was going to have some withdrawal issues and the first week was horrible mentally. Physically I pretty much dodged the bullet. This is day 15 and mentally I am still exhausted. My mood is ALL OVER the place. I cry a lot. I'm anxious all the time. I went from sleeping at least 6-7 hours to maybe 4 very restless hours. My trazadone didn't even help last night and Xanax got me relaxed but only 3 hours of sleep. My question is, is this still part of the withdrawals? I am so ready to be myself again :(

Another thing, I am on 50 mg topamax for migraines. 25 in the am. 25 at night. I have been on it for four months.

[CWKavinRAS]

It could still be side effects from the withdrawal, but it should be getting better at this point.With that said you should speak to your doctor regarding your Topamax. That could cause some mood issues as well.
I hope things get better soon for you.

[Tiredandconfusedinfl]

It did get better for a little while. About a week except for being depressed and tired. But me being the drug seeker I am just though maybe Xanax or Ativan would help me sleep even better and lift my mood. Do you think that from just after 2 weeks off and on xanax and Ativan (never more than .5 xanax or 1.5mg ativan a night) I could be having rebound anxiety? I talked to my doc today about the topamax and she said that if it was going to cause problems with my mood it would have months ago and says that most likely it is due to anxiety. I have panic disorder also :( she suggested 20 mg paxil.

I have NOT told her about my drug abuse. I'm so ashamed. That is why I have posted on here. She does not prescribe me any pain killers.