Account so quick forgot to say I'm male
Made this so quick forgot to say I was male..
Dear you2jk,
Please don't beat yourself up for this. What people do alone behind closed doors is their own business. You have not hurt anyone nor did anything bad. I am not a psychiatrist and this is a bit out of my scope of practice but I am a mother and I feel your pain needs to be addressed.
Your anxiety may well be coming from the overwhelming guilty feeling that is completely misplaced. Your psychologist is there specifically to address ALL your feelings and what is causing them. Trust me; what you are doing is not so horrible that it will shock the socks off of a seasoned therapist! They have heard much, much worse!
You, on the other hand, cannot address your issues with her honestly and productively unless you talk to her honestly and openly. Your mind is an intricate machine and your porn addiction is not separate from your anxiety.
Once you open up to her, assuming you trust this woman (if not, you need to find someone else), you will be able to get yourself away from the computer and see that the world is full of beautiful young women. Eventually you will find one of them attractive and maybe she will even share some of your interests (they are not that rare).
Good luck to you, my young friend.