Scared i'm harming my unborn child help please

[shay30]

I am 30 yers old and 3 weeks pregnant i take 2 mg xanax 3 times daily 6 hours apart for my severe anexity. i know this isn't health for me to take pregnant but know i can't stop or can miscarry or have siezures which can cause my child to be born with brain damage i go to a pain management but they don't know i am pregnant i haven't went to an obgyn yet i am going to make an appt this week. i just don't know what there going to do about my xanax intake i don't get high off of it only take it for my anexity and panic attacks i also have a previous addiction to oxycodone and still take it the first week i get my script but won't allow myself to become addicted again but i know i can be harming my child by taking those the cravings are horrible i feel like a horrible mother and so guilty if something happens to my child i won't beable to live with myself. the father of my child  fight about me taking these drugs all the time he doesn't understand plus i am severely depressed and have been crying over the smallest things lately i don't know what to do i was thinking about gong to a 30 day rehab i went to a detox last aug and got off all the pills but got back on xanax four months later cause i couldn't handle the axexity and panic attacks. then i thought about n.a he said he will stand by me but says i can't do it on my own and he doesn't know how to help me i stay in bed all day everyday and don't want to leave the house he also said he wants to marry me but won't . my main concern is harming the baby i live in fl where it is so easy to go to a pain management and get these drugs all i have is a bulging disk and the precribe me oxycodone for that crazy for only having a bulging disk but like i said i am not addicted to the oxys just the xanax any advice will help please i'm desperate at this point and scared i need someone who understands. should i go to rehab or n.a as of my boyfriend we are going to go to counsling so he can understand what i am going through  

[shay30]

sorry i am 13 weeks pregnant not 3

[Julia M Aharonov, DO]

If this pregnancy is important to you, you need to address this immediately with you OB/GYN. Xanax is contraindicated in pregnancy and you should stop it as soon as possible. There are other medications that may be safer for you to take, but you must discuss it with your obstetrician.  Anxiety disorder needs to be dealt with through therapy and talk counseling, medications for anxiety; especially benzodiazepines are a temporary crutch, not a permanent solution.  The underlying issue that is causing your anxiety and panic attacks needs to be found and resolved.
Please DO NOT start taking oxycodones while pregnant. If you get addicted, the baby may be born in withdrawals. So, if you are not already taking them, do not start. If you are, taper the intake slowly, so that both of you (you and the baby) can withdraw together gently and long before your delivery.
It sounds that you have a lot on your plat right now from emotional stand point and it needs to be resolved before the baby comes at least to some degree.
Having children is stressful all by itself and you already have plenty to deal with. Please address ASAP so by the time your precious one comes you can great it with a relaxed smile and focus your energy on taking care of the new bundle of joy.
Good luck to you.