I have been a 'functioning addict ' for most of my life, I was addicted to pain meds such as hydrocodone, and it almost ruined my life, I was a nurse for 20 years and went to jail, for forging prescriptions, in turn I lost my nursing license. I am now addicted to Tramadol, I've been taking it for about three years, and I am so sick of the constant worring about how I'm gonna get more, I have 'doctor shopped' which is a joke, they usually only give me 30-50 at a time, that only lasts me about three days or so. I order them on web sites but that gets very expensive, when you are going through 180 pills a weekl, thats almost 500.00 a month!
I really want to get off of this horrible drug, but I can not function without them, I work in customer service, and the thought of not having them to get through the phone calls at work,I don't think I could do it. I've ran out a couple times and it was hell, I really thought about suicide, and at night my flesh would crawl, and intense aching! When I was getting off Hydrocodone, that was a cake walk compared to Tramadol withdrawl! I would really like to hear from other people in my situation, I need some support, I don't have anyone that I can share this misery with, and I need advice how to ever get off this stuff, without losing my mind!!