Sorry, I don't have a question...I just wanted to offer some HOPE!
When I was 19 yrs old, I began experiencing terrifying panic attacks which gradually developed into agoraphobia - along with the other delights of the disorder, crazy thoughts/fears, OCD, physical symptoms etc. I could not leave my basement at times, let alone my house! I suffered in varying degrees for ten more years. I tried a few medications - Fluvoxamine, Prozac, Tofranil, and finally Paxil which I continue to take to this day. I also had taken an as needed 0.5mg Xanax. In the beginning I took about three pills daily, now I take 0.25mg at night, and if I feel anxiety and want to, I will take an additional 0.25mg Xanax. This happens about once every four MONTHS or less!
I want everyone to know - that the degree my agoraphobia and other phobias had soared to, was incredible! BUT - now I am an independent 42 year old woman, I went to college and became a registered nurse, I flew to England with a friend and to Italy ON MY OWN for vacation, I fly to Florida each year alone and vacation on the beach feeling that life is good again. I drive, I work, I GO INTO stores and ENJOY browsing the aisles, in a nutshell - I'm living!
When I was at my worst point in this disease, I NEVER EVER thought that I would be at this level of functioning. I know where each and everyone of you are, and how you are feeling so hopeless and depressed and are wondering IF and WHEN things will get better! THEY DEFINITELY WILL!!! It'll be some hard work, some tough challenges facing those phobias - DON'T be afraid or feel too proud to get help from medication (I was at first) - reach out to others who suffer as you do, and those who have made it through. Thank goodness for the internet in this day and age.. I didn't have it when I was suffering my worst, but it is such a comfort! I found, that I did have to (little by little, with some backsliding) face a fear, and go a little further into the uncomfortable zone, then when my mind accepted that nothing horrible was going to happen (took more than a few times to stick) but then I started to really believe it! I got to a point where I said.. just F'n take me now, kill me, I don't care.. and that gave me a little courage to push it, which then I realized.. HEY.. I'm not going to die, I'm not going to go crazy, it's going to be OK.!
I was reading your posts and remembering how despondent I was.. how everything was back then, and I really HAD to tell you all that you will find that sunshine after the rain!!
Thank you for reading my post. = ) Heads up sunflowers.. it's going to be OK!