I so sorry to hear that. I cant't say i feel your pain but i will pray for you and that god will send you a healing that you may find a way to get out of this thinking, and truly learn to live again. It seems that you feel like giving up ,like why keep fighting this when nothing seems to help, you tried just about everything but nothing seems to go right. I been there but you do have people who love you and they want you to survive, and i do too. I know this may sounds like crazy but there is hope. I have faith that you will see this through. I you need to talk please feel free to write me. I know you will make it.
Thank you "coolbreeze34". I am a Christian that is why I have never committed suicide, God and my families grief. I started attending a new church where my son is a deacon and it was such a blessing to be baptized on the same day as my 7 year old granddaughter. That was my last time outside of my house. I am reading a Bible program "Ten Chapters a Day". I have faith in the Lord but also sometimes get mad at Him sometimes. I can deal with depression and even panic attacks but not agoraphobia. I have always been a people person and I miss them so much. I was a cop, involved in a justified shooting, and taught DARE ti elementary children, I volunteered for our local hospital and so much more but can no longer do any of that. I am changing psycs to one who specializes in anxiety. I hope God lead me to him. My other doctor will not prescribe any meds; Xanax, Valium, Klonopin, Wellbutrin, Effexor, Ambian. So I'm on my own to handle the withdrawals after years and years of taking the maximum doses.
Thank you for your encouragement. I have faith I will find healing through my Lord. God bless.
From one agoraphobe to another...heh...I say the best thing you can do for yourself now is find a psychiatrist who understands anxiety disorders.
GPs and some psychiatrists are fearful of prescribing anti anxiety meds...I get that, but there are many experienced ones who will hear that you have tried other meds with no success and work with you to find med that will give you a base to work from. Dependency shouldn't be the first thing a doctor thinks about.
Try not to compare yourself now with who you were a few years back. We change with age and life's events. I hope soon you will accept where you are,appreciate the help you son gives you and take baby steps back into life.
You are posting on here...a good thing. So, although you don't get out of the house now, you can reach out to all of us here @ Med Help 24 hours a day.
I think there are toll free help lines available to all @ no cost. Hope someone will let you know about them.
You may feel like life offers little joy right now, but you know this thinking is the product of the depression that follows extended periods of anxiety.
Faith is a powerful force. An important part of healing ...but not the only thing you need. Getting over an extended period of being housebound by agoraphobia takes a little of this and a little of that.
Best wishes....keep posting ...you might want to post in the anxiety or depression forums as well as this one. Am certain you will find lots of support here.
I to have lost my quality of life, after being on medication that gave me all the emotional courage to seek out a new way of life.To let God finally in my heart. To have my family back once again my grandkids all the days at the beach the parks the zoo t ball games God gave me a life worth living.Thank You Jesus. Then on that day I went to my Dr. appointment and I will never forget the words, "I can no longer let you take these medications, its been 5 years and the risk of you being addicted to them are great". That was 4 years ago. I to wont commit suacide because God says"Choose life".I try,and cry alot, and just the other day I was sitting as I always do, alone, and just as clear as anything I heard God tell me," I have healed you,you just dont know it yet."Stop asking and start thanking me"huh?I tried to figure it out and got angry with myself and God and blurted out loud, OKAY GOD THATS IT, I AM DONE FEELING LIKE THIS, I CANT DO IT ANYMORE HERE YOU TAKE IT,TAKE ALL THIS DUMB SADDNESS AND I went on to list everything I could remember that I hated about my life, all the while crying, THERE ITS YOURS NOW, I sat whiping my face with my top and when I finished I quietly said,Thank you", Thank you Lord for loving me, Thank you Lord for taking my hurt away, Thank you Jesus for giving me the courage to let go today, and I thanked Him for everything I could think of. I ended up falling asleep and when I woke up I went and unburied my bible and just began to read.FAITH IS SURE OF WHAT WE HOPE FOR AND CERTAIN OF WHAT WE CANNOT SEE.Its been only three days but in three days Ive showered and watered my backyard and as the sun was setting I even sat on my front porch. I began again, Thank You Jesus....just thought I would share this with you and maybe you can try it. I will be praying for you and thanking Jesus that He gave me someone to share a little bit o Him with. God Bless You