Quick bio...I am a 49 year old female, two grown identical twin boys, and grandmother to 3 girls, one due in Aug. of 2016. I had RNY gastric bypass 10 years ago (will be in july) and became an alcoholic after about my 3rd year post-op. My highest weight was 445 pounds, now I am 145-ish and have maintained. I have done tons of research on alcoholism after gastric bypass and found it is incredibly high. I NEVER drank before gastric bypass, as my mother was an alcoholic and swore I'd never become one. I suspect it is "transfer addiction" from being unable to eat large quantities of food, however now I am learning that it could very well be a change in the brain from some of the research I've done.
I have been in rehab, outpatient, AA, you name it, and can go through periods of sobriety, but it never "sticks". I can drink a bottle of wine a day, sometimes more. After many years of this, I've built up a tolerance, and find it takes more and more. As a EMT, I am quite aware of what it can do to my gastric system,organs, and body. Yet, I continue to self destruct. I go to the ER and get on Librium to W/D at home, as I was literally inpatient every month last year, and find it easier to just withdraw at home. I could teach the things to other's I've learned inpatient at this point.
I suppose this is more of a "can anyone relate" situation more so than a question. I feel so very alone.
My last drink was 4/16/2016 and I hope and pray it is my last.
Thank you for reading if you made it through.