It's not easy to do it alone, but as someone who went to 378 straight days of AA, I can tell you that you've gotten the wrong impression totally. Go to AA...now...don't look for excuses not to go, just pick yourself up and go to a meeting. Walk up to the first person you see and say "I've been sober for 3 days and want to drink." Chances are the person will talk and talk. If they offer to pray with you (it never happened to me) then ask them to pray FOR you because you're not comfortable with the spiritual angle. Please don't sabotage your 3 day start by not going to a community of people who will know exactly what you are feeling. You will be soooo glad you did. There was a young man a few days ago who felt just like you, hesitated to go to AA, went anyway, found the courage to tell his folks he needed help, and they were SO glad he did. You DO NOT have to talk in AA -- depending upon the size of the meeting most people don't talk. I didn't talk one meeting out of l0, during the meeting. I talked to other women before and after, though. Try different groups....but go. You will find people (women, I'm guessing by your "kitty" name?) who will give you their phone number and tell you to call them any time of the day or night, if you feel the urge to drink They will give you tips, and you will make sober friends. Pick up the phone and call your local AA now -- most groups are listed on the web for the city you're in. Write me when you get back, PLEASE. But don't drink......
Go read this string of posts -- you'll be so inspired.......
I don't know where to start.
Male, 20 years
Member since Jun 2008
Mood: king2mp is getting better!
, Jul 04, 2008 02:43AM
Tags: alcoholism, withdrawal, depressed, dealing with anxiety