My husband has been drinking heavily for 3 years - was vodka, then wine and now back to vodka. If I even mention the word "Vodka" he gets upset and turns it around on me - that starts an argument. Its sad we have never fought only over his drinking. He becomes a different man, he is not mean - his mouth just starts running away and crazy crap just falls out and then he can't remember what he said. He does go to work for a few hours and I am sure he is drinking - he keeps it in his truck - constantly going and taking swigs of vodka by noon he is pretty loopy - his eyes are all glassed over and its hard to have a conversation with him. Tonight he came home around six and said he was exhausted - I could tell he had been drinking half the day - came home changed and went to bed , he doesn't want to eat he would rather drink. His children know whats going on, only due to conversations with them. I am not going to lie to them , so I've kept them up on what going on. I'm worry that I am gonna get so tired and fed up and decide to leave. I love him more then life. He has been my life, my sole mate, my rock and my love. How do I keep from being mad about this daily , I need to help him, but he says he can do this. Guess what it has not happened - so now do I just help my self and if so How????