Oh how i recall the early first 2 years of greiving when my dad passed......it took 3 for me b4 a full acceptance of it came to be.Now i go see my mom.....and how this Lewy Body Dementia continues to take its toll on her:(and i flip back to the good times of early childhood...especially holiday times when we celebrated w/ethnic foods and were happy w/ a new pair of wool mittens and/or flannel pj's under the tree!i have a pic of my mom and dad taped near my kitchen sink.....in better times...and i roll back the cameras to happier times....and grateful i had them!its all one can do.......and ur so right...u just keep pushing thru the sadness and these greyhounds and cats of mine w/their soft funny ways help the healing process along!
Your words are comforting~
I am okay, i am clean and sober and with that i can get thru anything~
Sarah,
I feel so bad to hear how hard things are for you right now. I have seen you be so strong and help so many, I really wish there were something I could say or do unfortunately with matters of the heart "time" is what is needed. I'm so glad you have your "four legged babies" there with you. Take good care of yourself my friend, you are in my prayers.
It's been very tough, one foot in front of the other. Nights are the worst now as my mind goes to places that i have forgotten about. My childhood flashes thru my head and i remember the good times and how i wish i was little again. I feel like an orphan. I hate the grieving process but am grateful to be clean and sober. No matter how bad it hurts it is necessary to walk thru this and feel the emotions. My 4 legged babies have been very comforting. I cry and they jump on my lap and lick my face! I still miss Snickers but he is with both of them again. Bottom line here, this suxs.....
How are you and your babies doing?
we love u here 2 dear!how u been lately?u been on my mind a lot!hows family...2legged and four?
I am humbled to be surrounded by such wonderful people here~
My first two years were the most rollercoasterish emotionally and mentally....but i kept myself @ sober ppl and for me a LOT of meetings helped....i didn't always agree w/ a lot there but i took what i could use and left the rest....and stuck close to those w/good recovery who walked what they talked!U just keep doing what ur doing......stay disciplined mentally....and u will succeed!Plus i didn't go @ the old drinking /using buds.....that is a big downfall for many!
thx dear man!i credit my strength to 2 parents...one who was 2 nd generation Slovenian...first job @ age 10.......struggled thru the great Depression as did my mother who struggled w/2 mentally abusive parents and one who molested her....she left home and worked to put herself thru nursing school in the 1940's!i have 2 tough parents.....i think i luckily inherited some of that from them!I used to complain @ how strict they were when i was young...and oh yes i rebelled....but hindsight and recovery is a blessed thing......they taught me a self discipline that is necessary for sustained recovery!I'm glad i reclaimed my life!from the darkness to the light!
Hello GoPenn!
I am really glad to hear you made it through the day! That temptation will disapate in time. Anytime you are feeling tempted just remember these words:
"Today, I smile, I laugh, and I love. No lie, it’s still a daily struggle to deal with grief and addiction, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel….
And so can you……………… "
You have been through so much and worked hard to come so far. Congratulations on your one year! I'm so glad you took your life back!
Take care!
Randy
Ibizan a very big congradulations to you my friend! I am so proud to have you as our group leader. You are such a wonderful person to devote so much of your time and personal experiences in an effort to help the rest of us!
You are very fortunate to find the strength you needed to maintain your sobriety through happy times and hard times. You are the perfect example, Be very proud of the fine lady you have become! Thank you for all that you do :)
Randy
Thank you and the same to you. I just celebrated my 1 year and am no way going to throw that away. Luckily my family does not really drink around me, but the temptation is still there. Thank you for the reminder!!
God Bless
today is 29 years ago after the bar closed that i had my last drink and drug!it was tempting in the beginning....but i had proved over and over what a failure i was @ controlled drinking and recreational drug use!The time went slow in the beginning...first 3 years...but time moves on......and i have much to be grateful for......no longer enslaved by liquid chemicals or otherwise!hope all had a nice day!
Bless you and bless us all. Amen! :-)