AGAIN google the brain chemistry behind addiction!AA works if u want sobriety bad enough........sober ppl......take what u can use and leave the rest....don't compare urself out of the room....it and NA plus a 360 degree lifestyle change helped me to reach 28 years sober/clean....29 11/22/12!
I am not sure the underlying reason I want to get drunk...I think it stems from wanting to feel more confident, funnier, sexier, etc...and I guess things just seem more "fun" when you are drunk...dancing, watching the game, even going to the movies...sad I know...
Thank you for your responses :) any suggestions of where I could turn to for help? I don't think I'd quite fit in at AA at this point and I haven't heard great things about it either. Thank you so much for any help!
Google and read the brain chemistry factor in addiction......WE have faulty wiring!ur story sounds SO much like mine......but i was never successful @ attempts to control it!why do we do this?brain chemistry,genetics,like the feeling, emotional underpinnings...it all goes 2 gether in one BIG ball of wax called addiction!
Hello...
Unfortunately you are heading down a very serious road. It started the same for me. And eventually you will start to crave it..because you are using it to make you numb. As I read your note, I see pain. I don't know why, but there is a reason you wish to be drunk. For me it was grief. And getting drunk, I just didn't feel it anymore. I thought I was just being social at first too. And if people are noticing, it must be worse than you think.
Trust me .... you want to get help now before it gets worse. And think hard about why you wish to get drunk. What is the underlineing reason?
Good luck!!!