I was very touched by your post and I need you to know you are not alone , you have found us here at med help, you may chat to me any time you want to ,I am always around I work online so I bob too and fro, we help each other here thats what Med Help is all about, I help you ,you help me . Heres a good idea in fact I am known for my ideas, I have started a group called "Ideas for Economical Living" I would love you to join us here the Link..
http://www.medhelp.org/groups/ideas_for_economical_living____ if that doesnt work click to my profile under 'communities 'you will see a list and Ideas for economical Living 'is there, click and you will find the site. There are a lot of other groups as you will see, browse around for a few, its fun ,you make friends and you learn a lot. there are also the Medical forums ,I am sure with your challenges there are other folks need input and they will have some for you. PM(Private Message ) me if you want ,life is tough but trust me you can change it if you choose to..Welcome