Welcome NewMom to Medhelp and the Anger Management Community. I'm so glad that you opened up here, and no, this is not a place to judge you. It is only meant to be a support system.
Can you share what your therapist has had to say about how to handle your anger? and how you are being told to handle yourself when you get the urge to hurt an animal or go into a rage?
Well it is wrong what you are doing. I have an insane amount of anger I'm prolly the worst out of my family but never once did i want to hit an animal, I mean for one the animal can not defend it self, maybe a bigger dog but even than u could still hurt it worse, secondly I don't think you should have animals your just setting ur self up for failure, I have a daughter who will b 6, this yr I am very against hurting animals I've got into fist fights over it, but now I see my daughter is doing what u do, and it drives me nuts ew really makes me mad lol and I don't understand bc I'm totally opposite, and I try to explain to her how wrong it is, just idk what to do, I have to b super careful n watch her around animals and that is stupid, you want to get ur anger out hit a boxing bag tape a pillow to your wall and hit it, I rather watch someone fist fight a person than hit an animal, definitely talk to someone about ur anger, talking is one of the best things to do to get anger out I use to cut my self than I started fist fighting ppl male n female all the time and it got worst to we're I had domestic violence charges so, ya ik how hard it is to control but at least ppl usually deserve it a animal does not. Sorry I went all over the place wit this, I wasn't trying to b rude but it's a touchy subject and I hope u figure it bc ur kids do usually follow what up do, I have anger issues now does my daughter..
Hope all goes well for u
My suggestion is to get a psych. eval. hurting animals is a pretty big indicator of a few significant mental illnesses. (like Antisocial Personality Disorder)