Maybe the best thing to do, if you've tried therapy with a few therapists and all of them have treated you this way, is to get rid of the pets. Give them away to good homes. This way, your son will not see you mistreating animals. It will be hard, I'm sure, as I know you likely love these animals despite what you're experiencing, but think of them and what they need and deserve. In the meantime, work on anger management classes and such to try to get a handle on controlling that feeling and how you handle it while your son is still young since we all know there will come a time when he will ask for a pet.
Honestly i have never talked to anyone about this before but i live with my mother right now who happens to be a veterinarian which makes ot about 1000 times worse one of my dogs is scared of me even though i have tried really hard to console her and regain her trust I don't do this all the time but the fact that I do it at all just makes me feel like the worst person on the planet I mean honestly just talking about it makes me feel like I want to kill myself q what I'm really afraid of is that it's going to morph into something more severe like I'm not going to be able to control my anger when my son gets older and instead of the pets ill start to take it out on him....
Hi, I saw your post and had a few thoughts about it. I'm not judging, just wanted to share with you.
You mentioned that you have/had a therapist, but have never shared this information about your pets w/them ~ I'm just wondering, is it because you don't feel completely comfortable with them, or is it that the reality of facing the problem with your anger really scares you? You've got to be totally honest with your therapist otherwise you're just wasting each others time (mostly yours though) ~ and things won't get any better.
You're a young mom w/ a new baby, which can be very stressful and overwhelming even in the best conditions; since you have issues w/anger plus add in lack of sleep (etc.), this certainly can add more stress to your daily routine. That being said, you may find yourself lashing out more often now than you ever have before ~ now is the time to get the frustration under control before you do something you might regret. Be honest w/ your therapist, or seek out one you are comfortable with, you'll probably be surprised with the positive results you get. If you're noticing any new symptoms, such as increased depression or anxiety along with the anger, you may want to talk w/ your Dr. about that also (might be postpartum depression?). It's completely treatable, and nothing to be ashamed of...
Good advice from quietgirl:
Have you talked with your mom about maybe finding a home for your pet (s),or is there anyone you can ask to help care for your pet(s) right now? You deserve a break, and so do your pets ~ it doesn't necessarily mean forever...
Take care, and good luck
Just saw this while browsing this website for the first time, and you're not alone hun. I show this kind of behavior towards my cat. I do have a history of physical anger issues, but realizing I have this problem and admitting it has helped me tremendously. I do still hit him, but I don't necessarily see it as a bad thing. I've made big improvements to lessen the swing and not hurt him as bad (I only hit him when hes in trouble). I used to throw my cats against the wall when they upset me, so I'm improving and so can you! The first step is admitting it, talk about it with your therapist. (: