*DISCLAIMER* I am in NO way glorifying or praising my thoughts. This is in no way meant to be funny, I just want to know why/how these thoughts come about.
I have an unprecedented amount of anger/violence towards women, especially attractive women. whenever I see a picture of a pretty girl or I see a pretty girl in person i get pissed because I know I'll never get to be with her or even talk to he because of my SAD.
I'm not a violent person at all I've never even been in a fist fight let alone a damn shouting match, I've never put my hands on a woman before , but all it takes is for me to see a beautiful woman and I instantly picture her nose bloodied and my breaking her jaw or sometimes even then being raped. I remember I would watch movies that happened to have some DV in it, and I would love to see the women get smacked around.
It's an awful way to think ,and idk why I feel like this, but it's just thoughts nonetheless that will hopefully never turn into actions.