Hi, umm need your opinions please?
im pauline, and it really took me a lot of courage to post this question, i usually just surf the net and read patients with ED and their struggles,
one fact im know and sure is that i have an eating disorder, but im not really that sure what categorizes it,
if i've started out to be a restricting anorexic for 6 months
(meaning counting calories and excercising like mad) then suddenly eats then finally turned into binging and purging habits 3 weeks consecutive in 1 month then suddenly restricts again, then somehow i've develop the feeling and "urge" to eat a lot then throws up and i've been fighting very hard everyday to control that urge thing to eat,
however, if i won from that urge i would restrict myself so much and go into starvation mode, to make it short: my current eating habits in a week is that i binge and purge in 2 or 3 days consecutive then starve myself in the rest of the week,
what kind of eating disorder do i have?
im underweight but not in 15% to be considered as anorexic, so does that mean im bulimic? or an anorexic(the type of purging anorexic?)
i also use laxatives, i take 3 spontaneously, then lack of sleep. there is also a time that i didnt menstruate for 4 consecutive months, when i puke one night i saw blood in it and it really scares me, but after a week im still continuing it, if im not binging i only eat **** things like candies for a day, im scared to eat a full meal,
please bear with me and don't think negative of me or my habit although i know it's bad, and i want to break it, it's not easy and it will not help or nothing will still happen with those giving simple tips like: eat healthy, stop restricting and blah , blah, sorry if i sound rude, i guess im a little stressed out,
please do give your opinions, it'll help alot! thank you very much!