i need HELP

[Rach878]

Since i've been to college the whole purge/restricting has gotten way worse. I'm purging everything that i eat and i have  been doing this for 3 weeks. Last week i had to go to the ER for a IV becasuse i was dehydrated. I don't know what to do, but i need help!

[eynati]

lol no they don't have calories and if they do it's like five or ten- u burn that when u do nothing!!! besides those r good calories u should stay away from cakes and fried foods that will make u fat- not fruits and vitamins !!

[Rach878]

I can try to eat fruits and veggies....don't vitamins have calories? and how do i know what vitamins to take?

[eynati]

I c- well I can tell by your face that u r hungry!! lol u need to eat cuz ur updated pic u have black under your eyes!!!!!! that can't be good !!!!!! eat lots of fruit and veggies take vitamins at least!!!!.....

[Rach878]

well i have some bf, but i just started college so there back home. i have some friends here, but none that know about ed....what could you tell from my face?
i do have fun, just ed is always there too.

[eynati]

well u might not think your super skinny but I saw your pics and your face said it all!! I don't think u should be alone bc if u r alone u start thinking and analyzing **** too much not bc I think u will die god forbid !! and u r so young don't waist your energy on stuped **** like that !!!!! u should have fun- do u have a bf?? or gf?? do u have many friends???

[Rach878]

OMG, i bet she's adorable. I'm not skinny, i'm above average for my height, but i am loosing the weight. I know i should stop, i just can't do it on my own. I need someone to help me. Why should i never be alone? Since i'm not super skinny, i really don't think it'slife or death, it's just ED.

[eynati]

she's 4 months:)

[eynati]

I understand- at this point u should just know that it's life or death! u shouldn't be alone at any time!! and u should defenetly c a therapist right away. it sounds a lot more severe then what I went through cuz I always knew when to stop - when my body couldn't handle anymore- I still wanted to be healthy not just skin and bones!! I knew if I will b that I will pass out some day ir die! and the only time any guys would look or compliment was wen I had some meat on me lol!!! so just think a little more befor u purge next time!!! pls:)

[Rach878]

Right now i am not in treatment. I even had to leave my therapits to come to college. So I am really almost alone. I started seeing a therapist here, but she has never worked with someone with an eating disorder, so this is why I dont' know what to do,but it keeps getting worse.

[Patricia Pitts, PhD]

I have seen you on the post for  a year or so.  I'm quite concerned about you. Eating disorders destroy our emotions, relationships, bodies and souls if we don't get on top of them.  I believe you've been in treatment some.  Are you currently in intensive treatment?  Having to get emergency IV is scary!  You have too much of life yet to experience and much to do and love!  Keep doing inpatient, residential, partial or intentive programs until you get beyond the eating disorder.  Having had anorexia at a very young age and having battled my own eating disorder for year, I know there are solutions.  Perserverence is a critical part of the process.  Wishing you the best!  Dr Patricia Pitts  The Bella Vita  Los Angeles, CA

[Rach878]

I am 20 years old, and have had an eating disorder for 8 years.
I know what you mean, but i can't stop. I actually never look in magazines, because they make me feel worse about myself. How old is your daughter?

[eynati]

how old r u?? if u don't mind me asking- cuz I went through that a few yrs ago and I truly think that over time u change and think differently about things- I used to be so obsessed w my weight no matter how skinny I was and now I have a daughter and all of a sudden nothing matters!!I know u probably look in the magazines a lot!! I used to do that and want to look so skinny like them but u have to understand that these girls r either airbrushed or dead - I'm serious think about it- just live your life and have fun:)

[Rach878]

I can't stop....
i try to, but it hurts my stomach too much. I have food infront of me and even if i  love the food i can't bring myself to eat it, enless i know i can get away with purging. I am so tired, and even going to the gymn...sometimes i dont' want to but i feel like i have to....
I don't know what to do, to make this better.

[eynati]

oh god sweety pls don't do this to yourself !! iv been ther too and sometimes it's all in your mind I'm sure u r skinny and beautiful - if u feel like u wanna get leaner u can just eat better like chicken breast veggies..... u know healthy stuff!! but to do what u r doing is not gonna benefit in the long run I promis actualy it will **** your metabolism up and u might even gain weight!!! so I wish u the best really !:) but pls stop doing that!!! keep posting:).......