I have been bulimic for 20 years, why can't I stop?

[Phoenixmum]

I am now 40 and I still binge and vomit almost every day, frequently more than once a day. I have battled alcohol addiction and am 6 months into recovery. I have spent 6 weeks in a treatment center for my alcohol problems and have finally felt in control but with food - I don't know. I can't shut myself off from it. I HAVE to eat, but food for me, is like an alcohol problem once I start, I can't stop!! Especially my trigger foods, cheese, pickles, chili, CHOCOLATE!!
This is the first time I have joined an on-line forum. Is there anyone who can point me in the right direction? I cannot see me ever being free of this. It is still a big secret, I am ashamed to tell that I am still making myself sick.
Thanks

[Patricia Pitts, PhD]

Dear Phoenixmum,
I am pleased that you had the courage to write your truth.  Congratulations on your 6 months sobriety from alcohol.  Often when the alcohol ceases the bulimia increases.  If you are already in Alcoholics Anonymous, focus on working the steps.  If you are not in the 12 step program, please consider for both your alcohol recovery and recovery from bulimia.
American Psychiatric Association Eating Disorder Guidelines reports that 22% of bulimics have criteria for alcohol abuse.  You are not alone.  It would be wise for you to seek out an eating disorder treatment program to focus on your specific needs related to your bulimia.
To learn more about bulimia and different treatment levels of care, visit the bella vita website.

Best,

Dr. Patricia Pitts
The Bella Vita
Los Angeles, CA

[gcazares]

The only way to help yourself is by seeking help at a treatment center. You also have to be truly willing to help yourself get free from this agonizing eating disorder. I also have bulimia for the last 5 or 6 years and really want to stop too. I know exactly how you feel. :'(