Ok Thank you for the feedback. ill keep in touch once I speak to my psychologist on Tuesday. I'll keep in touch and thanks again.
Here's my opinion, and please don't take this as your only source, but many years ago I was also put on clonazepam twice a day when I was first put on an antidepressant for my chronic anxiety attacks -- not just one event such as yours. They are always addictive that way, and I don't think you really need the drugs -- I think you need therapy and to relax about this. Taking a benzo only as needed, once in awhile, is probably all you should have been given if anything, but the way you're taking the clonazepam it will be very hard to stop taking after awhile. Drugs are the last resort, not the first. Again, general docs don't know much about these drugs and even only the best psychiatrists do. Try and do without the benzos every day if you can. I know everything seems out of hand, but you're young and you will get over this if you just realize you're dealing with a stressful event, not yet a life change. It might turn into that but you're not at that stage yet. If you really feel you need medication see a psychiatrist -- your psychologist can probably suggest one who is good -- and get a better opinion than the ones I think you're getting from your doctor. But whatever you decide to do, and again, I'm no oracle, remember, the only cure for this is to change the way you're thinking about it, not drugs. Peace. Oh, and don't blame yourself -- most of use pot at some point, and stop using it as well. You just had a shorter experience than most, but don't go blaming yourself. Stuff happens.
I don't want to live a life ran off medication, i'm just worried that It might be the only thing that will help me besides the therapy.
Ok, thank you very much. Tuesday I have my very first appointment with a psychologist, who I hope will give me a better understanding of what's going on. My doctor also put me on .50 mg Clonazepam twice a day (1 at night and 1 in the morning). This should help with my onset panic and anxiety. Also should I talk to my Psychologist about the Clonazepam as I know Benzos can often be addictive, note I only started last night.
Don't worry about depersonalization and derealization. These are just descriptions of things people with anxiety and depression sometimes feel, but they aren't labels of who you are. I don't think you actually have it. What you had was a high you didn't enjoy that scared you and a weedover. Marijuana just isn't for everyone, and even when it is it can become a problem later. Any drug that affects the brain can be a problem, but how much of a problem it is depends on how you react to it and think about it. You're overthinking and overworrying, and stay off the internet when you don't have a diagnosis. It can be a useful thing when you have a diagnosis to see if your doc is doing the right things, but when you have no real diagnosis it's just a horror movie. You see a psychologist if you want therapy. You see a psychiatrist if you want drugs. Most psychiatrists don't do therapy anymore, and even when they do they charge a lot more than psychologists with less education about psychology.
Also should I see a Psychologist or a Psychiatrist? Is there one you prefer over the other?
I realize that what i did was wrong, I mean i'm a teenager aren't we suppose to do dumb things sometimes? Anyways I just wish the weed didn't affect me this much. Iv'e been up all night watching youtube videos and videos about depersonalization. I just get scared it's all in my head. Anyways thanks for the response and I'll keep in touch.
Thank you so much for the response, I'm running off of no sleep been up for 24 hours now, which isn't good. right now my anxiety is terrible as I sit here responding crying, and shaking as I can only think about the anxiety/fear. I don't know if lingering off of the medication will help or not, dang I don't even know if it's necessarily helping considering I'm only on 25 mg. Anyways thanks for the response and i'll keep in touch
Oh, and let me add, if you do decide at any time to stop taking the Zoloft, do it carefully and slowly, at your speed. These meds can be hard to stop taking or they can be easy, but most general docs don't know how to do this. If a person does decide to go on medication because therapy has failed and life has become intolerable, it should be done with a good psychiatrist who, after you talk to the person, seems to respect and know how to use these meds safely and cautiously and how to take people off them safely. Peace.
Hi there, it sounds to me like your body just took a while to get the marijuana out of your system. If you had never smoked this or tried other drugs before it's quite natural that you would have such an effect. You're probably remembering the feelings of the high also. I too have tried a drug through peer pressure, I did it one other time. I spent a lot of time feeling ashamed and thinking about everything that happened when I tried this drug but I just decided to take the attitude of 'ok I tried it, I won't be doing that again - learn from this experience and move on, stop over thinking your actions that were not your actions but the actions of a person under the influence of a powerful substance'
I too, question life quite a lot and at times I have let the fear of death consume me and trouble me, I think now I realise that life is for living and the more time I spent worrying about something out with my control the less time I spent living my life. Maybe you would benefit from meditation, it's easier than it sounds- it's about concentrating on your own deep breaths in and out, if your mind wanders on to other things just gently bring it back on to the breathing alone. You need to do this everyday, make it a part of your daily routine and you will feel much more relaxed.
I would also recommend speaking to someone who can offer cognitive therapy which will help you to change the way you 'over think' certain things.
It is a strange time changing into an adult, you should think about what you would like to do with your life - maybe you already know?
The goal should be to not rely on any medication, talking therapy is the way forward and the best long term solution as well as the meditation.
What you have to say to yourself also is that there are many things I do not understand about life and the universe and our very existence but life is for living not fearing the Unknown. We are here to enjoy life, give kindness to others, be with our families, realise each day is precious. Have no regrets in life, go out and do what you want to do and achieve what you want to achieve. Your potential is up to how much effort you dedicate, live in the 'now' and let go of the past (trying of the marijuana)
Remember you are what you think, meaning your thoughts become your feelings, think positive things and positivity will fill your life.
I hope that some of this is even a little bit helpful to you and I wish you great things in life!