27 male. Not a stranger to the forum. I was just curious to see if anyone else can relate. =)
I suffer from health anxiety, however, for the past 5-6 months I have been anxiety and Med FREE. =) Amen.
However, I do have a bottle of ativan for those just incase moments of anxiety, which I have taken some the past few days to help stop myself from going into full blown anxiety mode.
Last Thursday night, I was attending an Awards Ceremony for a movie I made. My wife and I and friends and family all came to support me. (My film did get nominated several times by the way ;) haha. Unrelated)
While I was at the awards ceremony, around 8pm i felt my stomach rolling and rolling, then then I felt like I had Diarrhea. I ignored it, thought it was due to nerves, b/c as much as I tried to keep myself cool, I did feel a little pressure from the big night.
That evening when I got home I had to go to the bathroom, and sure enough it was the "D" word. lol.
I felt fine though. The next day (Friday) I felt bloated, gassy, rolling stomach, and had "D" all day long and night. Sometimes I'd get cramps and I'd feel like I could get nauseous. My anxiety level was pretty low though. But I felt TERRIBLE, and I kept thinking I had a flu bug.
I took an ativan that night just to relax, b/c I do have health anxiety, and I was a little anxious from having "D" all day long. It's just no fun ya know? lol.
The next day (Saturday) I felt much better, and while not having an appetite, I still ate some things, like toast, peanut butter sandwich, etc. I felt much better. However, in the late afternoon, I got REALLY tired and had a mild headache, it hit me out of nowhere. Then for dinner, I felt kind of hungry but nothing looked good. I ended up eating some salmon, b/c it looked the most appealing for some reason, and a roll, and some fruit for dinner.
After that I felt the stomach cramps coming back, I got hot and sweaty for a moment, then it passed. I finally tried to use the restroom, and sure enough there was a little bit of "D" but not a whole lot.
Sunday came rolling around, and I felt even more better than Saturday, and I even had a hard stool in the afternoon, For dinner I took my wife out for Mothers day, and I actually wanted Spicy Chicken Wings and ranch dressing! lol. I know I know, gross right? But it SOUNDED SO GOOD. So with not having much of an appetite, I chowed down.
On our way home, my stomach felt bloated, which was expected, but then I got really gassy, which was also expected? lol. But when I got home, I felt the urge to go to the restroom, b/c I started cramping up a tad again. I was so frustrated!
It ended up being just a little bitty bit of "D" but not much at all.
With having health anxiety, as some of you know how it is, all we do is FOCUS on the "WHY is this happening" "WHAT could be wrong?" "WHEN will it ever stop?" Then we make our selves more anxious.
That's what I was doing, however, the rest of the night was fine.
Monday came, and this is the day I caught myself being SUPER anxious at work, my stomach was rolling, but I didnt have "D" all day or night. I did have a partially hard stool that evening, but followed by some looser stool, but not "D".
But I caught myself going into an ANXIETY spell... I was focusing SO much on it, kept thinking about it... finally I took 2 ativan and chilled out.
Today hasnt been as bad, my appetite is still gone, and my stomach has been nervous some due to anxiety.
I had a partially hard stool today, but have had some acid reflux a lot too. I've been taking some over the counter "not prescription strength" acid reducers. They have seemed to help some the past couple days.
But but my question is...
I've had this before (I looked back in my journal, and one summer I had this for about 2 months, and my Dr. wasnt concerned, he did a stool sample back then and said it was just IBS symptoms from anxiety.)
Do you think that one night of the nerves could cause my digestive track to go full blown crazy for the past 4 days? Just curious. I'm sure the answer is YES. I should know this. And I've really came a long ways with anxiety this past year.
I know when I'm fixing to go into a downward spiral, I KNOW when to medicate myself with ativan and when not too. And the past few days is the only time I've used ativan in 5 months. =)
I guess I just want this digestion crap to stop, I can't stop thinking and pondering about it, which I'm sure is making it last a bit longer?