Background Story
i was in Spain like 8 years ago and my dog died while i was on holiday and i was really upset then i came back of holiday then like a couple of months later i went to the supermarket with my mum then i started feeling anxious so i went to sit in the car while she was shopping then i ending up running back into the because i felt like i was dying which in turn was just anxiety then i was on and off having panic for like 5-6 month then they went away or i over came them but then i went to secondary school and half way in year 10 my friend died from meningitis then after that i counld'nt go back into school for a while because i was just scared of going to school then i went in for my exams and that was it and i finished school in year 11.but now i go to college and i went for the first year and did fine all the way till we had a long Christmas break and then my anxiety got worse again and then i couldn't go back to college but now i am doing my second year at college and i was fine at the start but the last 4 weeks have been hard becuase i use to skip college sometimes and play xbox with mates but now whenever i have like a break from college it makes it worse for my anxiety but now if i try go to college now i cant i cant go on public transport and i feel like i can't walk to college i just need someone to drop me off but then i am still have panic attacks at college.
My Problem Now
i just have trouble with everything like when i play xbox i still get panic attacks and i feel like i am manual breathing and if i stop manual breathing i am gunna stop breathing and i just want these bad thoughts in my head to stop so i can get my life back i just need tips on how to calm down from someone that has beaten anxiety because i am ready to beat it and get my life back but i just dont know how to because i dont believe half of the info that i am told because i just think negatively.
like tips on getting to sleep , health diet i am not fat i am fit because i did a lot of sports when i was younger but now i just eat bad foods and snack and drink pop all the time.also i need like good things to do because i just sit in the house on my Xbox and that is not helping.
i would consider taking anxiety medication but i am worried that it might interfere with my asthma medication because when i have like one wheeze noise from my chest it just makes my have a panic attack like i am in fear of dying witch is because of anxiety
just please help me and tips are greatly appreciated