You are most definitely not alone in your fear of public speaking. If I'm not mistaken, I think it's at the top of the list for people's worst fears. If I get called upon to speak to a group of people, I can feel my face turn beet red, I start to sweat like a hog with no waller to wallow in, I KNOW I'm about to wet my knickers and I shake like I've got ants in my pants, which would be my wet knickers! LOL
It's really normal and about the only people who enjoy it are people who do it for a living or polititions!
I also don't like people to watch me write for some reason. My hand starts to shake and I spell things wrong..........I don't think it's anything to worry about, just do the best you can. They aren't going to turn us into the penmanship police afterall. At least, I hope not! I'd be doing "hard time!"
How long have you been on the clonazepam? At what dose? How many times do you take each day?
Unfortuantely, taking these medications will not "cure" the underlying reason we are taking them for. Anti-anxiety medications will do nothing but help us deal with the symptoms of anxiety or panic, they simply "mask" those symptoms. If we wish to actually cure what is causing these symptoms, therapy is the only way we will get to the root cause of that underlying issue. Only by facing that issue and dealing with it can we hope for a "permanent" cure.
Peace
Greenlydia